"The world does not change me....
…I change the world.
The world opens my eyes to possibilities.
It unlocks new avenues of thought.
And the more I learn, the more I want to know.
So I suppose it changes my perspective.
But.
It has not changed my heart.
It has awakened my mind."
How's everyone?
I'm bored with my life, I really am. I'm sick of repeating the same routine and I've been doing the same thing for 3 freaking years now. (Yes I'm in a bad mood, so I'm gonna bloody ramble til my heart's content) I just want to stop all my activities and do the things I've always wanted but I can't because stopping everything involves a lot of time and people. Sigh. I don't want things to be scheduled all the bloody time. I want to be able to do my sports whenever I want. I'm not saying I don't like the sports I'm doing. I'm okay with ballet and gymnastics but cheer is boring the shit out of me. But I can't quit because I've been given a huge responsibility. I want something unexpected in my life, I don't wanna feel, "Oh cheer, gym and ballet tomorrow. What's new?" It's just so boring. Three years already and it's gonna be the fourth year of the same shit over and over again. Some of my cheer friends wouldn't understand because they only have one sport to commit to, that's why they love cheer so much. I want a freaking adventure, I wanna explore. I don't wanna wake up, go school, do sports, go home, tuition, sleep. It's the same thing!!!! (I know I've been repeating this a lot) I'm just so bloody sick.
I'm starting to get lazy and I'm starting to not care anymore. I'm too lazy to do my homework, I don't care about it. I'm lazy when I do my sports, I don't even care if I'm not strong. I just wanna get over it. Thinking of all of this just makes me upset and frustrated. I need a change, I want a change but it's just not that simple when my life is always so busy. Sorry about the ramble.. Just screw everything for now.
No effort, no love.
Love Rachel*
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