Unexpected bond

Hey everyone! Sorry I haven't blogged in so long (please,like anyone reads it). I just came back from my Penang trip and guess what? It was SO FUDGING AWESOME. I had so so much fun and I definitely grew closer to some people. I'm very thankful for that, got a chance to bond and experience different things during the trip (: I forgot about all the bad things which was good, thank God. But now I'm back and there's nothing to distract me, all the bad memories are coming back. I really wish I could turn back time and stay in that moment forever. I wouldn't trade those special moments I had for anything! My body is still super sore from the jet ski ride because I keep tensing my body so I wouldn't fall but Mark almost killed me, TWICE. Overall, I just had damn a lot of fun. Sleeping super late, long walks at the beach with friends, beach sports, gambling, watersports and definitely the bond we all had together (: ah, blogging about it just wants me to reverse everything! Sigh...

Anyway, we've got some Myammar refugees visiting our school and we were all assigned to a kid. The kid I'm mentoring is called Faruk. He is super adorable and he is such an amazing kid! We had a bond like never before and I'm so thankful that I met him. I'm visiting him tomorrow in his school so I hope to know more about him. I'm pretty sure I'll have a life-changing experience meeting all of this kids. Will blog more about it tomorrow guys!

Hsiang Lin taking a picture of her with my back, haha!

The mini island there!

Everyone in the picture went parasailing except Saffron.

Indian food night! The fried squid was ze best!

Viper! This ride was shit awesome man!

The end of our trip )':

For now, goodbye and I'll be back (:

Love Rachel*

Subway delivery, whaaaa?

My three favourite men. Ugh. DAMMMM. they fineeeeeeee! <3

Class trip tomorrow, whaddup! Can't wait, can't wait, can't wait! The bad part is I'm having my period. Uterus lining Y U BREAK AT THE WRONG TIME! Ppfftt... So pissed at my uterus lining right now. Awkward but whatever! Not sure whether I'm gonna wear a bikini :b Gotta pack soon and I can't wait!

Feeling quite overwhelmed and excited :D Short post because I'm super distracted right now. See you!

HASTA LA VISTA BABY!

Love Rachel*

Now and forever, I'll be your girl

Let's jump into the pool of happiness!

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EXAMS ARE OVER! FUCK YEAH! Officially free for the year! Sad part is I only have about 1 month with my class or even less than that, how sad. I'll forever miss my Zeta mates. I'll be separated from my classmates because of the streaming. Damn /: Hope I'll be in the same class with some of my friends.

I have so many things to do in my to-do-list after exams! So excited man! The seniors are leaving school, gonna miss some of my senior friends so much especially the bimbos in Cyrens'12. They've been such a big part of me and I'm gonna miss some of my seniors ): Wishing all the seniors the best in your future life.

Anyway, since now exam is already over. Back to the normal life I had. Cheer, sports sports. Bleh. On the bright side, I can read my novels now. Teehee! Ugh, should I paint my toe nails? I DON'T KNOW! So many things going through my head right now. I'M GOING MADDDDD!!


Ciao Motherfos! Happy After exams y'all!

You'll forever be in my heart

Love Rachel*

Using it against me.

Play dead. 

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Boring Monday. Boring Monday. Boring Monday. Tomorrow is my last day of finals then I will be officially free for the year! Well free of exams of course but not free from cheer or gym or ballet. haha! I'm always locked up in cheer until I quit of course. Gym is fun but I have to prepare for MSSS & MSSM. Ballet is nice as well because I keep pushing myself to improve.

Class trip is in like four fucking days! Can't wait to escape from everything. Just want to go have fun (:

I'm really not in the mood to blog because I'm depressed and I'm pretty sure no one wants to hear me complain and mourn again yes? So goodbye /:

Love Rachel*

Killed me silently

Don't mind me

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I feel like I'm going through the most torturous moment of my life right now. I feel so empty. Lonely. Hurt. Exams are tomorrow, shoot me already. I hate what I'm going through now. It's as tough as shit. I know I have to be damn strong and keep moving forward. People tell me, "move on". It's not as easy you know. If it was I would have done that straight away and not needing to go through this shit. It sucks like hell. It makes me moody, angry and so depressed. Whenever I see those girls, I just want to go right up to them and slap their face so hard and stab them repeatedly with whatever I got. You have no idea how much it angers. You happy bitches? You contributed to this. I just want to shoot you all in the heart.

Sorry, I'm normally not very mean. I don't do this. But I am a dark person inside. You have no idea.
Oh and I change my tumblr to www.empty-pages.tumblr.com

Are as hurt as I am? Or you just don't really give a fuck.

Love Rachel*

Look away

Not at all to be frank.

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Short post today. I don't really have much to say because I'm not in the mood to talk or say anything. On the bright side, I got my front pike-ish layout full twist, standing landing. I was really happy when I achieved that skill. If you don't know what I'm talking about just forget it. I'm just talking about a skill in gymnastics I manage to get for floor exercise. Class trip to Penang is next Friday, can't wait to just have fun and forget about everything else. My mind is too full. Occupied and there isn't any space left for happiness. Sigh.

Finals begin on Monday but ends on Tuesday, thank god.

I'll blog more shit when I feel better. I'm just going through a rough time and I can't help it. It's a huge deal for me.

Can I survive without you?

Love Rachel*

Another day

The sun will come up again.

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The weather right now suits my feelings perfectly.

I'm stuck in the world of misery. 

No sunshine to brighten up your day.

Lightning to remind you of your pains

Constant thundering so no one can hear you cry.

The never ending rain pouring down to hide your tears.

But I hope after this pouring rain the sun will come out. 

Where sunshine will take its place again.

Where rainbows will distract you from all your sorrows.

Where the birds will show you that you're free from misery.

And the wide green space to be filled with happiness again. 

A reason to have hope.

Love Rachel*

Shouldn't be good in goodbye

I'm kissing you goodbye.

CHECKPOINTS ARE OVER! But that doesn't mean freedom because we still have finals. Sucks, I know! I know can do so many things I always wanted to! Can't wait and I'm damn excited for my class trip to Penang. I have to choose the subjects I want to take for Year 10 but I'm kind of having dilemmas between few subjects. I hope I'll make the  right decision. I would write a longer post but right now I really need to poop. I don't care if you feel awkward. It's human nature!

0 days. 

Love Rachel*

You threw me away

Lost or freedom?

Had checkpoints today! Wrote so much my hand got cramps during English and Science paper. I had a bad headache during English paper 2 because we had to quote a lot from passages and that means a lot of writing and copying. I found it really irritating, lol. Copy and write repeatedly. The papers were quite easy, I won't say very easy because I don't want to be overconfident. I see everyone on twitter tweeting, "OMG, I GOT 1 MISTAKE", "Hope I can get full marks!" and I'm over here praying that I get more than 5.5 for my papers. Did I set my expectations too low? I just don't know what to expect at all, seriously. After the exams I didn't feel anything, I just felt like sleeping. Haha! I just want all my papers to be higher than 5.5.

Three more papers to go, can't wait! But there's still finals. Geography, history, pointless ICT & literature. Ms Wanda who is my literature would probably give me a D again. She's a terrible teacher, seriously. You get coursework marks for copying. Yes it sounds like a pretty easy way to gain marks but you have to copy shit loads of summaries which at the end no one would even read. I would show you my literature exercise book if I could. I have a fairly nice handwriting but if you see my literature book, you probably thought a 7 year old had spasms while writing it. She doesn't even mark our work, it's so effing stupid. She might be one of the English teachers for Year 10 & 11. I rather have Paramjeet or any other teacher, no way in hell I want Wanda as my teacher. I'll fail English -.-

Forget that first, gonna do my best for tomorrow! (:

Time is running out,

and all I can do is pout.

I have to face the fact that I'm losing you,

This is reality, this is the truth.

As the days get closer, 

Do you think, "Am I going to lose her?" 

The thought of it makes me broken

When I tell you I'll go frozen. 

Are those lies from your mouth? 

Your hurtful words are pulling me south. 

I don't know how to feel,

all these thinking is making me ill. 

In the end it's all for the best,

let nature take care of the rest.

1 day and counting... Goodbye love.

Love Rachel*

Nag nag nag

This is so coool!

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Just a quick update before I proceed to do my things (: Today we had a briefing about what's gonna happen during checkpoints and blah blah blah. It was a bit boring because the usual rules were explained. I don't like my seat in the examination hall but what to do, rules are rules, pfftt. At least I won't be THAT cold during the exams. YAY!

Checkpoints begin on Monday, needa read my notes until my brain explodes. Ugh. I'm actually more focused on the things I'm gonna do after checkpoints instead of worrying about my finals. I will study but exams are over. No one would give a fuck anyway. Everyone will be like, "screw this shit" I would take the finals serious but not as serious as I always do. Oh you know how we have to choose subjects for next year? I'm still so confused but at least I know what I'm aiming for. I actually hate Physics but I'm super interested in things that fucks with your brain and you only can find all that in Physics. I guess I'll give it a go but it's good to learn basic Physics if not I will struggle in college. There are so many things to look forward to in school and I can't wait although I don't wanna deal with all the studying. It's gonna suck but it's gonna be fun as well at the same time (:  Leonard said that he's scared to migrate to overseas because you might be considered as an outcast and whatever which is kind of true. But you know what? You have to fight your way for the sake of your future. It's gonna be shit hard but it'll be worth it in the end (:

I'll definitely blog more in the future (after exams for sure) Good luck to all the students taking exams out there! Work hard & play hard!

Love Rachel*

Peer pressure? What?

It's okay to be alone sometimes. 

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Tomorrow's a Friday! No shit. The weekend is coming which means closer to exams, sadness but at the same time closer to freedom! Wooh. I just had 3 servings of Tau Fu Kang. It's a Chinese soup-ish dish. It's so delicious and it was my grandma's first time cooking it. Clap for my grandma everyone! (: *applause*

I skipped gym today. Well not skipped but I wasn't keeping track of time because I was talking to Jane & Victoria about what subjects I want to choose next year. I thought I knew my answer but I was wrong. I'm actually unsure about what I want to study. I've been given advice which helped me think better of course but I still haven't gotten my answer yet. I should just wait after checkpoints only I'll start worrying about things. It's kind of pressuring though because my mum kept asking me whether I've decided yet. I'm praying that I make the right decisions but for now, I shall worry about my checkpoints and my finals first! Joon Meng was also telling me how many students go to Taylor's or Inti's because they wanna study with their friends. I'm like, whuuuu? You're going to the same college because you don't wanna be alone? What kind of bullshit is that and where's the adventure? Study what you want and make NEW FRIENDS! It's okay if you're going to study alone, you'll get new friends and learn to be independent. Duh. You're gonna throw away your future just cause you want to study in the same school with your friends. That's just plain dumb.

Tuition in like 4 minutes, ugh. Kill me now. I'm so lazy but it's good for me. Exams are coming and I have no time to procrastinate if not I will surely regret it and complain later. Tsk. Have a good evening!

6 days and counting

Love Rachel*

Between you & I

It's a bouncing polar bear!!!!

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It's Wednesday. I think the week is passing kind of slow but at the same time this year is passing too damn fast. Everything's gonna change. New classmates, new subjects, new environment... Nah, it won't be that bad. It's not like I'm off to college or something. Pfft, come on girl, don't overreact but I damn sure will miss my classmates like crazy. I have to say we're the most united class among the other Year 9's which is good (: Despite our differences we still come together as one. 

"ONE FAMILY,

              ONE SOUL"

That's our motto right there, Zeta's motto ;) Exams are in less than a week. No pressure no pressure at all. Well to be frank, I don't feel pressured at all but I'm pretty sure my nerves will wake up two days before the exams. After that all of it will be non-stop fun! Hell yeah! Everything's gonna be different next year. Change is good but bad at the same time. You'll miss things but you'll move on eventually. I hope I'll stay close with my best friends though ): Definitely don't want any distance between us three. We're freaking sexy musketeers man. Haha. Seriously, we're sexy. I've so much to study, I knew I started a bit too late but I have to suffer with the consequences. My fault. 

Time is running out. It waits for no one. I don't have enough time for everything. Sigh. I wish for time to past faster because I'm so eager to know about my future but at the same time I just want to stay in certain moments forever. Why must life be so shit hard sometimes ): 

It's all for the better.

Love Rachel*

Outdoors baby

Party hard.

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My Monday was BO-RING as usual. I left school at 4pm sharp because I had to come home early for extra tuition. I'm grateful for the extra tuition if not I'll be so damn bored apart from studying of course. Guess what? I have one more folio left bitchessss! But it's Physics .____. I'm not gonna stop now though if not I done so much for nothing. I seriously can't wait for EVERYTHING to be over. I just wanna party, go dancing and get crazy :D I love to dance, it feels like you have nothing to worry about. Anyone has any parties you would like to invite me to? I'm like the party starter man. Wooh. Rachel in da

house.

I don't have much to talk about because like I've said up there, my life's pretty boring. Can't wait to spice it up. *brow brow brow brow* If you know what I mean ;) 

That's that

Love Rachel*

Sniff sniff

It looks fucking cool doesn't it?

It's a Monday tomorrow. Boo. I know how I've said before that I like Mondays but I'm gonna dislike tomorrow because I have extra tuition. It's for my own good ): Exams are near and I want to be as productive as possible. I hope I gain something from the extra classes I'm gonna have. On the bright side, no cheer training for one week! Wooh! Exams are near so we got some studying to do man. Remember how I said I was gonna make this weekend productive? Well it didn't turn out so well but I did study! Gonna study a bit more later.

I just can't wait for the exams to be over then freedom! Class trip and many other things to look forward to (:  Both bad and good /: Oh well, I was looking forward to dinner today with my family but my aunt cancelled because she won't be home early. I'm a bit pissed off but whatever. Now I'm stuck at home and gonna be eating probably a sucky dinner at home. Yes I know the African kids and stuff but hey! I don't waste food and I'm sorry I complained. I get really moody when I'm hungry and I don't get the food I want.

Is smoking really that addictive? I've got to admit, smoking looks pretty cool but it's super bad for you so don't smoke just cause you wanna look cool. No shit, Sherlock. Especially when women smoke, you have to admit, it looks cool but it seems like such a turn off. Don't you think so? When I see men, especially hot men smoke I just get the repulsion straight away. I'll go, "Oh that dude is smoking, back off, back off" Maybe the thought of kissing a guy with cigarette breath is the turn off. Maybe that's it. But still, it looks so cool. HAHA

My stomach is growling like mad, I'm always hungry actually. But right now I'm extra hungry. Now I feel like eating instant noodles. I'm gonna stop now before I complain more about my hunger. Have a good evening everyone.

Signing out.

Love Rachel*

Damn straight

Almost paradise

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It's the weekend people, woot! Time is passing too damn fast. Most of my practices are cancelled tomorrow so that means, TIME TO STUDY! I'm gonna make my weekend as productive but fun at the same time. Exams are near, I'm studying shit hard. 

Today was pretty boring in school. Every period was like a bit of work, slack, watch movies and more slacking. I would've been more productive at home but I had to be in school. Went out for lunch with my classmates at AC. It was really nice, just hanging out with the awesome-mest classmates in the world and chatting. It relaxed me although my face got pretty flustered from the heat. A few of us dared Leonard to touch Ms Alexis' (My English teacher) nose. He failed but it was pretty funny. Ms Alexis said she would have punched him. HAHA. I would wanna see a teacher punching a student. 

Oh, something happened in class on Thursday and I shall story it to you now. Chen Yu was writing her science notes and that smart ass Jonathan pushed her hand while she was writing. 

Wrong move bro. Chen Yu got so pissed, tore her notes and started crying. Grace said that if Jon pushed her hand while she was writing, she would've slapped her. I know you all are thinking, "It's just notes, chill." and whatever. No, it's not just notes people. We spend a lot of time and effort writing our notes so we'll understand it and it will be neat. Notes are effing long, especially science notes and people like me who are so anal about things wouldn't want their notes to look like shit. So my advice to you is, don't mess with anyone when they are writing their notes, ESPECIALLY NOTES. If not you're getting yourself into deep shit honey. Really deep shit. Mhmm. *snaps snaps snaps* 

Nothing much to blog about and I can't dedicate so much of time to the blog for the time being because  I have to study ): Oh well, hope you all have a fun weekend ahead while I die in education.

PS: I'm starting to like physics = The world's coming to an end.

Love Rachel*

Desperado

She's so gorgeous ):
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How was your Tuesday? Today's pretty fun for me actually if you ignore the things I'm going to blog about soon. Begin we shall.

 It's always noisy and yet quiet during Geography because there are always the bunch of people that will talk and giggle like no one can hear them. I'm also sometimes the part of that bunch of people but hardly, especially during Geography. I do my own thing and bug no one else. Today, the bunch of people kept giggling and talking which was really frustrating because they were right next to me and I was trying to pay attention to what Mdm Lai was talking about. Mdm Lai got a bit mad and told them to quiet and their response was the usual. Giggle. Giggle. Giggle. They say sorry but yet they make noise again. Come on man, you don't go throwing the word around like it's meaning-less! Sheesh. Then they just continue their little chat over there. Mdm Lai gives everyone a study guideline on what to focus for exams and again they complain, "Omg, there's so much to study! Why is it so long? We have checkpoints too!" Complain complain complain. At least be grateful that she gave us a brief damn it! If she didn't give us a brief you'll complain more. It's better than nothing. Ish.

Yeah that was what got me so frustrated. Call me a hypocrite but you're right. All we do is complain and complain and not be grateful for what we have. But when it's gone, we regret not appreciating it. Fix the shit up now before you regret. That's that. Definitely not in the mood to study today, uh oh.
I have tuition soon so see ya (:

It's gonna be rough but you'll get there.

Love Rachel*

I'll miss you

I'll find the someone one day who will kiss me with me under the pouring rain.

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Ollo! How is your most hated weekday? Today is my favourite weekday so don't ruin it for me. Again, I could've skipped school today but I didn't because my good girl mode decided to kick in and say "Going to school is the right thing to do." Idiot. Didn't sleep at all last night, seriously. I didn't sleep all I did was close and open my eyes repeatedly. My mind wouldn't go to rest /: I just kept thinking about stuff, stupid brain. The funny thing is, I don't feel tired but just a bit sleepy. I'm not sure why...

The year is almost coming to an end, time is passing too damn fast. I still remember my first year in secondary school and it felt like it was just last week. Is the Earth rotating faster? I've finally realised I should have seize everyday. Appreciate everyday, every moment and every second. Good or bad I must be grateful that I'm still breathing. You don't want to regret one day and say, "I wish I could turn back time to do this or that." Nobody wants to live a life with regrets and "could've, would've, should've" We all will have to learn to move on and let go eventually. Yes?

Still can't believe Ian Somerhalder was gay in Rules of Attraction. He could've gotten a better role and that movie sucked -.-

Enough with the lectures, time to practice my guitar ;)

Love Rachel*