I. Don't. Care.

Well no one reads my blog so I guess I won't be asking unanswered questions :b It's only the third week of holiday. It's passing pretty slow or quick I actually don't know but once school reopens I'll probably complain about how fast holiday has past. What have I been doing with my holidays so far? Well, just trainings mostly. I've hung out with my friends but not as much. That's okay, it's good to be at home sometimes although it can be really boring.

I cleaned my room today. I estimated that I would only take 3 hours max to clean it. Start from 1pm and maybe end at 3pm but, I WAS WRONG. I started at 12.45pm and finished at 6pm so I took about 6 hours. I literally spent my whole afternoon and evening cleaning my room but it was worth it. It's neat and looks more spacious! I just can't imagine myself being that messy but it's messy cause of my pig sister! Messy person she is but I can't put the full blame on her because sometimes I just don't really care where I put my stuff. hehe. I was sweating like mad and I was wearing a white tank top. Cleaned all the dust and everything in a white tank top. Stupid decision right? I had fun cleaning my room with my maid and sisters though. My maid can be such a diva soemtimes, posing with the bags and all our accessories. Very grateful to have her (: There's nothing much to blog about. Oh yeah, gonna go badminton with the mates tomorrow! (Hopefully) and I have to wake up super early so I don't lose the stupidest bet in the world.

Goodnight lovelies!

Love Rachel*

Stop it.

Let's live life upside down
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I'm kinda losing track on what day and date it is. LOL. I think it's cause everyday is kinda the same so we just forget about everything else. There's nothing much to blog about because holidays are pretty boring and the daily training kinda makes it worse. I'm motivated to train but not under other people. I rather push myself and train myself then be forced to train by someone else. Some people maybe find it easier to train under like trainers/coaches because they can't push themselves but it's also more productive.

I'm currently waking up early in the morning during weekdays to go for a jog. I'm doing it partially because of a stupid bet I made with Mark. Why did I agree to the bet in the first place, I don't know why. I think it's because I don't wanna seem like a coward which I'm not but it benefits me anyway. I hope from this I'll produce good results. Lose weight, slim down and increase my stamina. My stamina sucks like hell, seriously. I hate stamina work but I have to push myself because it'll help me in so many things. I really hope I can go further than my current distance. I wish I can keep running (although I hate it so much) and never get tired. Then I can run far far away hopefully far away from reality but I know that is impossible.

I don't know what I'm rambling on about but whatever :b Forgive me. I'm gonna go now.

Love Rachel*

Confusion

Sorry I haven't been updating. It's the holidays so I'm either really busy or really lazy :b Forgive me. And again, no one reads my blog so why do I even bother. lol. Quick update since it's pretty late and I'm starving like hell. Having friends over right now so I don't wanna be so anti-social spending time on my blog and all.

Goodnight and Happy Holidays (: 

Love Rachel*

One last time.

I'll miss everyone so much... </3

Today begins our long holidays until school reopens for the year 2013. Yesterday was the last day of school with my classmates. It breaks my heart to know that I won't have the exact same classmates again. I'm just praying that I'll be in the same class with some of them. I don't want the Zeta bond to be broken because it means so much to me. I'm just scared of the fact that everyone will be awkward next year, like we won't react the same when we see each other like how we are in class... Sigh. I'm just praying so hard that I'll still be just as close with my classmates but I know that it will be quite impossible because everyone will go on their own ways </3 I've made so much memories with this silly class. I wouldn't trade my classmates for anything. They've really shaped me to become who I am today. None of them were a bad influence on me and hopefully I'm not a bad influence to them as well.

I'm just so afraid of next year. Afraid of who my classmates will be and afraid of the things education will throw at me. I rather have new students then have students from other classes. I guess I'm too attached to my classmates now. It sucks that I only got closer to the boys in my class during Penang trip and it was almost the end of the year. At least it was better than nothing. I'll never forget any of them because all of my Zeta classmates have a spot in my mind (: Let us all just pray for the best that'll our friendship will maintain until the day we die. Once a Zetanian, forever a Zetanian.

"One Family, 

One Soul"

I love you Zeta <3
R.I.P Zeta'10 ~ Zeta'12

Love Rachel* 

Letting go.

It's true (:
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You'll be alright
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Monday blues~ Nah, I had a good Monday! Just gonna blog a bit about what I did in school today then I'll blog something inspiring later (hopefully). Well, played cards and oh! Drew graffiti with Mark and it turned out pretty awesome! You could say it's one of my best graffiti work. I could do better but just need the right materials ): I need to get shit loads of sharpies! Went to eat butter prawns with Shan, Chun Ee and my two sisters. It was not bad I guess. Hung out with Kae Wen a bit and now I'm here (: Okay, I'm gonna be blogging something inspiring because it's what I'm going through now. Long post alert but bare with me, please :c ?

As some of you may I know I've broken up with my boyfriend who I've been with for 1 year 8 months about a month ago. I sure went through a lot of shit times and just breaking down, crying my eyes out. I still get upset when I think about it so I try my best to distract myself from it as much as possible. People tell me to move on but it sure ain't easy at all. Yeah, I'll move on but I just need time so chill. Right now I'm always trying my best to be positive about things. To me, I think there's a reason for everything that happens. You ask God, why do terrible things like that happen to us but you know probably there's always something good out of it. So that's what I'm looking for I guess, something good to happen out of this break up. It definitely made me stronger and it taught me how to pick people careful because not everyone seem to be who they are. I always had a problem with trusting people. I do trust people but only to a certain limit depending who you are to me.

Well, the road I'm going through right now ain't easy. I have to overcome the obstacles which are letting go and moving on. I'm still holding on to the sweet memories I had with him but I know sooner or later they'll just be memories and I'll make more memories with someone else. But I know at the end of this terrible journey, I'll be at a bright destination. Be at a place where I want to be and will benefit me. I've got to accept the consequences with a strong heart. I have to be strong inside and out. I can't rely on him for happiness, you can't really on anyone for happiness. People will fail you and you will fail people. This is how it works. Life won't always become how you picture it. I always thought that I'll have a long relationship with him but what happen happened. Come on, I'm just 15. It would be silly of me to get over depressed about things like that. There's so many things out there instead of being in a relationship. That's what people have to understand. You're still young and there's so much more to explore in this world (: Old or young you'll always be loved so why fear? I promised myself that I won't let a boy tear me down like that, I'll do anything to keep my pride on the line.

So to those who's going through a break up, girl or boy. Put a smile on your face because a smile does make everything better (: No one said it was ever easy to move on but we have to. It's not healthy for you to keep holding onto the past because you'll never be able to give yourself a chance to have a brighter future. Start with baby steps and you'll be where you wanna be. You've got to accept whatever you're going through but remember, everything happens for a reason and you'll gain something good out of it for sure.

I hope my post helped, I guess. It sure helped me though. That's all for today I guess!

Love Rachel*

Once in a lifetime

I'll miss you little Faruk <3

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Hey hey! What an awesome Thursday! It rhymes you see :D Today the class and I went to the kids' school. I forgot the name ): Their school was definitely nothing like ours. It was 3 storeys high, with only two fans at each floor, broken facilities and fairly clean toilets. But what made the building so happy to be in was the kids. They seem so happy, they don't complain about how hot the room was and they just go with whatever they have. I had a great bonding time with Faruk and I'll never forget that boy. He's so smart, handsome and very generous. I'll never forget him because he gave me a life changing experience and I thank him so so much for that. He is such a bright kid and I know that he'll be very successful in the future. Please, I would so adopt him but I don't want to take him away from his family as well. I gave him a polaroid and wrote his name in graffiti so that he'll remember me (: I really wish he'll remember because I know he'll always be in my heart. I had a very special bond with him (well I felt that way) and I wouldn't trade what I had with him for anything. 

I taught a few kids how to do the Spongebob move but I doubt they could get it. I'm really happy that they tried though and they seem to like my dance moves but I don't think I'm a very good dancer. It made me really happy that they enjoyed the time. We were all blasting music, singing and dancing. Everyone was pretty wild but they loved it! haha! Faruk really did dance his heart out and it made me really happy. I would want to see him this happy always. He has played a huge part of my life and I wanna see him again. He's like a little brother to me and will always be one to me in my heart. He taught me how to speak Myammar which was so damn difficult but I gave my best and he did pretty well when I taught him Chinese (: I am so proud of that little boy. 

Dear Faruk, I doubt you're reading this but I hope you like the things I gave you. Just remember that your kakak here will never forget you and I hope you'll never forget me either. Please study hard and I can't wait to see you become super successful in the future! I'll miss you very much dear. Take care and I'll see you soon! (Sadly I can't post a picture because we're not allowed to give away their identities but for the record, this boy is super handsome)

Love Kakak Rae*