Final breath.

Would you? Would curiosity take over?
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Had a lot of free time today, woohoo so I get to blog. Yay! My friend and I talked about it today, so from the title, I guess you can sorta know what it's about.

We all know one day, we're just going to die. Right? We're gonna live this pathetic life we have and just die after that (Ok la, not pathetic la). Anyway, does the thought of death scare you? It scares me, really. I always wonder how the hell am I going to die? Will I die tomorrow? Will I die in my sleep? All the uncertainties. Why death scares me is because, I'm scared of how I would feel when I know I'm about to die. The feeling right before your whole body shuts off, I'm scared of how it would feel.

I can't talk much about death because well, I'm very well and alive right now so I can't say from experience. I'm practically blogging my thoughts, mostly questions. What's gonna happen after we die? Where we gonna go? Who's gonna cry for me? Who's gonna move on with no problem and all these sort of things.

So sometimes I ask myself, if we're gonna die, why do I bother keeping fit and try my best to look good? Why am I studying my ass off if I'm just gonna like put it all to waste by dying? I guess, you know you want to leave this world with something good, you leave a good name people will always remember and whatsoever. I mean nobody wants to leave the world and people are gonna be like, "that guy who always got shit marks in exam died, damn, sorry bro." I'm pretty sure none of you want that right? You want people to be like, "That really awesome and smart girl? She's dead? OMG, what a pity. Sorry for your loss."

Death can happen anytime (yeah no shit sherlock) That's why people are always going "Carpe Diem!" and all of that. I guess yeah, we should seize everyday because, we're close to death every single second. There, you're now even closer to death by a second.

I'm really sorry if this post disappointed you but I hope it makes you think and be grateful. Remember that other people around you could just leave you like that. That's why we need to appreciate the people we love before they're gone, We have to remember from time to time that we should be grateful and thankful for the people around us. We just don't know when you know. I guess that's what death teaches us sometimes, helps us appreciate everything around us. Again, sorry but it's mostly questions because I'm inexperienced (lol) Yeah I know it's a sad post but it's something for you to think about.
I shall dedicate this post to all the people who have left this Earth, regardless of who they are and what they have done. I know someone out there has loved them or at least been acknowledge.

*moment of silence*

We won't know what we have until it's gone.

Love Rachel*

Why so desperate?

Maybe more than a few.
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Hey hey, I'm blogging because I'm just too lazy to do anything else since I've finished almost all of my homework, teehee! Holidays are about to come to end, this sucks. Didn't have much of a holiday in the end anyway, pssh.

So I was scrolling through my twitter to look for something to blog about and yes I've found something to blog about. (See, twitter can inspire you once in a while). As you can see from my title, the word,  desperate.
I'll narrow down to relationship wise. I will say here honestly that I have friends who are desperate for "love", well in their eyes it's love but I guess from what I see, it's more of, "I just need someone to like me so I feel like I'm actually wanted." Yeah, sounds pretty darn mean but this most likely might be the real reason, they just don't want to admit it. They hide away from that fact and continue to believe that they aren't desperate but really, you can see how desperate someone is from what they tweet (lol), from the way to react to the guys/girls they are talking to and etc etc.

I'm not sure how to put it in words but some of the people I know who are desperate are either broken up or just single for too long. If you have just broken up or have been single for a damn long while and you feel that you are not desperate, okay, good for you. (But again, the most desperate ones will definitely admit they aren't desperate at all, hmm? Kidding:b) You see, when you've broken up, you'll feel empty, you feel that a big part of your life has gone missing. I know how it feels because I've gone through it. You need someone to fill in that space, you need someone to love you, to be there to comfort you and stuff like what your ex did and you refuse to wait for someone so long again to be your next partner. So what do you do? You throw yourself at your closest girl/guy friends, you lead them on unintentionally and then bad shit happens because of your act out of desperation. Yes? No?

Also, for people who have been for single for too long and most of your friends are like smooching with their partners around you. You feel the need to have someone as well, you might feel the need to fit in or I don't know, the trend these days are like, "If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend it means that someone actually wants you and if you're single means, nobody wants you." Before I continue on, I will say that I completely oppose to that "trend" because having a partner does not define your status or whatever the hell people call it these days. No, a partner doesn't define anything. Anyway, where was I? Oh, yeah, just wanna fit in and shit, or again, you just wanna feel the love because love is such an amazing feeling and all that bullcrap so the same thing happens. You do whatever it takes for someone to like you and again, it's out of desperation. That's not how you get someone to like you, it's just so terribly wrong.

I honestly find, people finding love out of desperation is disgustiIt's like you're willing to throw your pride and dignity away just to get someone to love you. Then you start doing all sorts of things, like purposely seeking attention, flirting for the wrong reasons, stalking...etc. Really, and when my friends do get desperate, it's just so damn disappointing. It's feelings you're talking about here plus desperation I feel is a selfish act. You're involving other people's feelings as well. You can differentiate between couples who actually like each other and couples who are just plain desperate. Just be more observant and you'll know.
How to not be desperate? Well, simple as that. Patience. If you're they type that takes relationships seriously, then just wait. People will come around. The power is in your hands to act if you want to but be smart, not desperate.

Reminding y'all again, I blog my opinions, so if you do not agree with me, I respect that :) Thanks for reading!

Love Rachel*

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Who's to judge? Really?

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Ollo! hehe. It's already the second week of holiday, where did time freaking go... Seriously. I really think the Earth is spinning faster and faster. God help us all. Anyway, I hope everyone has been putting their free time to good use *ehem ehem*. Finally found time to blog or got into the mood to blog, lol.

Moving on...

I'm pretty sure everyone has kept their secrets, why? Why do you keep them? Why do you not tell them to someone? Because you're afraid someone might judge you. You're afraid someone might not look at you the same way they did before. Some of you may say, "I don't judge." Oh come on, seriously? We can't promise someone that we won't judge because we will judge either consciously or sub-consciously and that would be a lie. Don't tell me when you see a group of Bangladeshi men walking towards you and you won't think they're perverted or something. (I'm not being racist but truth to be told, most of us do think that way, don't we?) We judge people right there, on the spot. You may not say it out aloud but your mind has already made a judgement on what or who you see.

I do judge people sometimes, by how they present themselves. Well, sometimes people do show their personality through the way they dress and it's not always a case of bad fashion sense (I kinda think now, it's merely just used as an excuse) To me, I think the way you present yourself to the world, it's important. You don't need to like look super fabulous or be super slim or whatever. Just be decent. Well, because people do judge you. Let's say you're the boss of some fancy schmancy company and you want to hire a worker who's gonna hold a damn important post. Two male workers walk in, one dresses like he doesn't give a shit about anything but is very capable of doing the job and then there's another one with the suit & tie, looks like he's damn capable but he actually can't do shits. You then as the boss, would then think who'll be capable at first impression? The suit and tie right? That's judging right there. Intentionally or not. In a good way or a bad way, it's still judging. We really can't escape it.

The question is, why do we judge others? I guess it's because we have this set perception of how we see things, how we see the world and in our eyes, your perception is based on your perspective, perceived needs. That is your reality and you expect people to conform to it (again subconsciously). We then judge others because they do not meet the standards of our reality, they're not what you expect them to be. So you then say, "No you're not suppose to be fat, it's wrong." and then a fat person can then say, "It's okay to be fat. There's nothing wrong to it. You're the one who's too skinny" or whatever it is. We can't expect the whole world to have the same "reality" right? If not it'll just end up being a communist sorta thing. (This is my theory, at least.)

So I guess we cannot avoid judging... BUT that doesn't mean you can just judge however you like. Try maybe putting yourself in someone else's perspective and you'll probably be more understanding. Everyone is just basically misunderstanding each other, we just don't take the initiative to put ourselves in other people's shoes and see how they see the world. If you do, it might even widen your perspective of reality. We can't always point fingers and say, "Oh society judges, society judges." You make up society as well, so if we all be understanding for each other, life would most likely be a little bit better for all of us bit by bit. If you're gonna judge harshly, just keep it in your head. Because you're gonna get judged for being a judgmental bitch. But also, don't hide away your judgements, stand up for what you believe in but then put it in a nice way la :b In the end, don't jump straight to conclusions about people until you really get to know 'em.

Really like this quote.

I hope I didn't bore anyone. Thanks for reading anyway (:

Am I ready?

Love Rachel*