2014

If you're reading my blog right now I assume you do not have any plans for tonight? HAHAHAHAHA It's okay, I don't to. But it's okay to stay at home (:

I'm pretty sure there are a lot of people out there writing down their resolutions for the New Year. I used to do that but I'm quite bad at keeping at it although I have crossed out a few things on my list already (: Well, I encourage people to list down what they aim for the year 2014, you may not be able to cross it out at the end but at least, it gives you some sort of direction (: Hmm, but the thing that makes me wonder is that, what if the world didn't have years. Like just day 1 until day 1 billion and there are no years and no months or weeks. Just never ending days.... What if? Would we still make resolutions then? Will we still try to make changes to ourselves like how we always try to every year? I've talked about this before actually. I understand that it gives you like a new starting point kinda thing so you choose to begin on a new year, fair enough because that's what I did. But people say, why don't you make your change today or tomorrow. Why should you wait for 2014 to come? I guess it's pretty true why wait right? Hmm, I guess, sometimes you don't really have to wait for a new year or month to make a change. Make your own starting point (:

I'm sure everyone wants to make some sort of difference for the upcoming year but the problem with us is that we tend to forget about our resolutions and be like screw it. I assume it's because sometimes people aim too high and they get lazy to continue so they just you know, sod it. If you're serious about making a change to yourself, well, take baby steps. Let's say you wanna go to the gym four times a week, and before that you've never been to the bloody gym. First, think it through, will you find that sort of discipline and time to go to the gym? Will you get lazy and maybe skip? Maybe you can say go to the gym once a week and get used to that first. When you feel that oomf and all, you can start increasing your days (: Same applies to people who wanna so ambitiously study 1 hour everyday. I'm sorry but that really won't work. Isn't school enough? Plus studies show you should study about 15 mins, that's enough already apart from school.

I guess when you list down all that resolutions, I know everyone's like "yeah niggas, time to make a change. I'm gonna be a better person and all, blah blah blah hell yeah." You're so pumped to be different but just think of it in the long run, how long can you keep this up? You need to be willing to put in time and effort, gotta be discipline and ready to make a change. So I'm sorry to burst your bubble but, sit down and really think about whether you can actually cross out those things on the list by the end of next year (: Not trying to be negative or anything but come on, it's true. You know it's true :b

Gonna sign out now. Happy New Year's everyone! Have a great 2014 ahead (: xx

Love Rachel*

Happiness is a CHOICE

What do you choose?

Damn right it is. Ollo :D 2013 is ending so soon, damn. I still can remember 2012 so clearly. It's crazy huh how fast time flies.?What have I been doing with my life..?

okay, enough chit chat and on with it.

As you all know time's passing pretty darn fast. What does that mean? We're growing older, we're closer to death. Basically we're gonna die soon la, haha. So that means what? Less time. 

What I've noticed is that, many around aren't happy. Yeah it's pretty normal to be sad but sad all the time? Now there's something wrong. We all have to have balance in life, we would not know joy if we know no pain, yes? We'll have our ups and downs, good and bad ya know. Many say they cannot find happiness again, and I admit, I have said that before. I thought I could never be as happy as I used to be while I was going through something but in the end, I proved myself wrong. I'm now as happy as ever with my life (:

If you can get sad, why is it not possible to get out of it? It is possible. You can choose to be happy, (hence the title) if that's what you want. For example, you're sad in a relationship, you don't feel happy so what do you do? You get out of the relationship. You'll then realise how light you feel because the burden's taken off you. At the end of it, it's your decision whether you wanna be sad and stay in the relationship or leave and go search for your happiness. Yes, it's not as easy as it sounds but I can say it's pretty much worth it you know, being happy again. You can't be sad forever, at some point you have to snap out of that depressing bubble and really live your life. I guess maybe that's why people commit suicide. People don't think about searching for their happiness again, they think they're gonna be sad forever so they think, "might as well leave this place". I believe that everyone out there can be happy, whether is watching a little boy chase a butterfly, or just writing a blog, or working. I guess people come up with excuses because trying to be happy again takes effort and time so people take the easy way, just stay in their pool of tears. Your friends can help and all, hell, I can give your the best therapist in the world to help you get out of your sadness but if you don't wanna be happy, nothing can help you. You need the will to be happy. You need toWANT to be happy again.

In the end, it's really up to you whether you want to search for your happiness again. Do you want to be sad the rest of your life? Well if you do, then.... I guess it's up to you but I guess everyone deep down wants to be happy. I think everyone deserves to be happy in their life. Being happy is a really nice feeling, it's worth all the time and effort honestly. You should give it a try sometimes, sad little ones. There's not enough time to be sad in the world, so might as well use the time you have left to be happy (: Start by smiling (:

Happy Early Christmas y'all!

Love Rachel*

Don't let it hurt you.

One knife.
No, two.
Flying straight towards me.
Directly to my heart.
One goes in,
and then the other.
Don't cry
Teeth gritting hard.
Don't cry
A lump building in my throat.
Don't cry. 
Pain spreads not through my body
but through my heart and my mind.

I look okay, perfectly fine.
But I'm not.
your words hurt me.
Like knives piercing through my heart.
I pretend.
"It's just a graze, it's alright."
Deep down, I know.
It's not.

A wound that can never be treated.
Never to close.
It makes me vulnerable,
more pain will come.
More knives...
Like rubbing salt on a wound.
The burning sensation
but it hurts so bad.

Just someone with wounded heart.
But she's still standing.
She's never going down.
She stands proud and tall
with an open wound.
Don't cry. 
Sight blurring.
Don't cry.
Tears building.
Don't. Cry.
Run away, hide.
Cry. 

I don't know what I just wrote. No, I'm not emo if that's what you're wondering :b

Love Rachel*

What a sight.

The night was at a close, the bus slowly driving to a stop in front of a house. It seemed small, as a terrace house, and lit by florescent bulbs, giving it a more old look. The group, just coming back from a very merry house indeed, proceeded with much chatter among themselves. A lady greeted us, her smile wide, and her face bearing the fruits of age: wrinkles and sags. Yet she was jubilant, and very much warm, inviting us in to a cosy home, with few furniture, and very precisely places equipment. We walked on, still in our happy selves, and our guitarist made a friendly conversation with her. The lady had a nice tone, warm and delightful when she spoke about the lamp that was questioned, and just answered the guitarist that it was made by her husband, gesturing to the back of the still unexplored house. We walked as she led, into a room with two entranced; we gasped seeing an old man in a bed, eyes closed. The lady introduced him. Jason. She kissed him softly on the forehead and whispered words, loud enough for us to hear yet soft enough to be considered a whisper. “The carolers are here to sing for us. Dear, wake up please.” He did not stir, eyes shifting underneath his eyelids, but no bodily movement was made. “He cannot move, but he can hear perfectly. One of the best traits I remember about him,” the lady said. We got ready, the whole room now silent with a solemn feel, and started singing, gracefully; more graceful than the previous houses. It was truly amazing, because as we sang, he made small signs of movement; and as he did so his wife clutched his hands ever more so tighter, and kissed him ever more so gently. The first song was sung beautifully, and she thanked us for our amazing voices. We sang another song, again as profoundly graceful as the other, and now, more than ever, we felt sad, and happy, for these two. I, in my heart, could imagine the love needed for this family, the wife, to hold on so tightly. Every time we sang a verse, she would hold his hand and whisper in his ear the lyrics, meaning every word she said, just hoping, hoping that he would wake up. We sang our last song, tears already in my eyes, rolling down my cheek, and then he woke up; or rather his eyes opened, as he started crying as well.

 The Songsby Andrew Tai

I wonder what it would be like to grow old with someone and be in love for as long as you live. 

As you know, this was written by my friend Andrew. This was a real experience he faced while he was caroling. I just want to share it with everyone not only because he writes so amazingly but what he saw was truly... touching. It gave me a thought, on the couple's love, and what it would be like to watch a couple like that right in front of your eyes. Does it build a lump in your throat and made you wanna tear? It certainly did for me. According to Andrew, this man fell from a three storey high building and got his right brain damaged, therefore his eyes can't work properly.I don't really know how to put my feelings into words after reading this, but to witness something so beautiful but yet so painful at the same time, I just don't know what to think but cry, cry for the couple, for the strength of their love and yet for their pains and sorrows they're going through. Just put yourself in Andrew's shoes maybe, and imagine it. How would you feel? It's definitely something to think about or maybe not, but it did stir something in me I can't quite explain.

Love Rachel*

It's your shit. You do it.

Irrelevant picture of a peaceful scenery.
Yay blog time. Guess what I'm gonna talk about? Responsibilities! Woohoo! Don't need to get too excited y'all, I know it's an interesting topic, calm yo tits.

Yeah I know it's a pretty sucky topic but the reason I want to blog about this because I just feel that it's an important "element" to have, you know, being responsible. I just want to remind myself and everyone else about it so bare with me would you?

Being responsible is damn freaking important (Goddamn I sound like a mom). Let's say you got this group project, someone picks you to be in their group and you're told to do this this this. Everyone has their job to do so yes that's settled. But in the end, you forgot to do it because you were too into something else. This obviously pisses the group leader off because you're the only douchebag (sorry I didn't want to sound like a mom) who didn't finish their job therefore you can't pass up the bloody project. Then everyone gets lower marks cause of you. So don't blame your friend for not picking you to be in their group because you didn't do your freaking job. Don't be surprised that you'll always be the last pick. I'm damn hell sure I don't want someone in the group who won't do shit that they're responsible for.

You see, when you carry out your responsibilities. It makes your life and everyone else's life a whole lot easier. You do your job, I do mine. That's that. But if you don't, don't expect people to trust you with anymore responsibilities because honestly, giving a job to someone where there's only a 50% chance he/she might do it isn't a risk worth taking. True?

And yes another thing is to always be responsible for your actions. If your sibling breaks something and blames it on you, then you have to deal with all the shit your mum throws at you. You like that? No, you wouldn't so don't do the same to others. Easy. You mess up, you be responsible for it. You don't wanna be responsible for anything, don't get involve, be smart, don't mess up. Plus you can't run away from your responsibilities, not the big ones at least. The minor ones maybe once or twice but dream on if you think you can run away from it forever. Cause one day you're gonna be given a huge responsibility at the same time an opportunity of a lifetime and if you mess up, well there's no way you can run from it. Always be responsible for whatever you do. If you're so worried, just think of the consequences because (QUOTE TIME):

"The universe doesn't give you what you ask for with your thoughts; it gives you what you demand with your actions"

Yeah crappy post for today because my thoughts are all over the place and I'm too lazy to re-read the whole thing. Hope it's okay though (Y)

Will it ever come true?

Love Rachel*

What I have to say.

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What do you hear?

Rumours are carried by haters, spreaded by fools and accepted by idiots.
Are you any of the above?

Hello, feeling kinda shitty now. I hope blogging will make me feel better, haha. I hope everyone's being productive with their holiday so far. No? Get some shit to do then :b

You know what I hate? Like I seriously just bloody dislike? Bitter gourds, they are disgusting. And so are rumours... I hate rumours too, they can really piss me off. I know you may think, "If the rumours aren't true, why are you mad? You should know the truth and all that." Yes fair point, but I hate it cause it's so stupid. If you want to spread a rumour about me, why don't you come to me, and clarify the shit you want to spread before opening your big mouth? Before I continue on, I'm not talking about this because someone's spreading rumour about me or anything, I just thought of it. 

But some people don't really care. There would be this group of people who spread rumours to get attention and maybe friends. Especially the types that like to gossip would approach these people because man, they're so damn busybody and want to know everything and anything so they can gossip even more! Hooray. So they wouldn't really care whether these rumours are even true or not, they just spread it. Heck, they might even make up a rumour themselves. It's not their loss anyway. Yeah, but does it feel nice to be a dickhead and spread false news about other people? You like that? Why don't you chop off your own dick and tape it to your head. (okay, I know I sound really angry so far but I'm not, seriously, I'm just feeling shitty so I'm trying to let it all out) And if you're a girl... Go find one and paste it on your head.

Then there will be another group of people who just "accidentally" tell other people because they just heard it. First of all, if you're not even sure whether the rumour is true. Shut it, seriously. Or why don't you clarify the real shit first? (: Second, if you know its true, still, why spread it? Put yourself in their shoes and would you like people to know something that's not meant to be known? And to the person who the rumour is about, seriously, who do you share your secrets with? Your boyfriend? Girlfriend? Best friend? Well if it's spreading like wildfire than you need to make sure whether you're sharing it with the right people. Maybe you should say "Look I'm about to tell you something. Don't. tell. anyone." Emphasise on the ITS A SECRET thing. Some people really need to told like 100 of times that its a secret but in the end, some asses still scream it out to the whole world.

I think I'm off topic... I'm too lazy to read back. Okay in a nutshell:

1. Clarify with the main person about the rumour before you open your mouth.

2. If you mean harm, seriously, don't be a dick. You wouldn't want the same happening to you. In the end, what good will it do to you?

3. To the ones who accidentally talk about it, THINK TWICE (you should always be thinking twice anyway so don't come up with excuses)

4.Make sure you can seriously trust the people you tell your shit too. If you only told one person and other people know about it. You gotta sort that  out.

5. Shut your mouth. (I highly recommend this)

Okay, I feel better now :) I sound like a dickhead when I'm angry. Lemme go paste one on my head.

Wait.

Love Rachel*

Security.

Yay blog time. So I participated in talentine today but didn't get any placing. Still pretty bummed about that but oh well /: Life goes on.

Let's just get on with it. Alright, in case if you haven't figured it out yet, my topic would be about insecurities. My mind is damn blank right now so I'll just type out whatever shit that comes into my mind.

Okay, I'm pretty sure all of you have something you're insecure about. You're afraid people would insult you for it or even comment about it. For me, my biggest insecurity would be my voice. It's deep and husky, not much like a girl's right? Honestly, I did not find anything "wrong" (bad use of word but I don't know how else to put it) with my voice but then as I grew older, people started commenting about it. "Why your voice like guy one", "Are you having sore throat" and blah blah blah then I'll be like "yeah..." So obviously I was offended by it then I just started getting more insecure. Then whenever people insult me about it, I'll just burst to tears. (what a baby right?) Explains why I'm quite afraid to call or talk to people for the very first time. It's because I'm just so bloody scared they will say something about it. Well if I'm damn close to you then I don't care because you don't. (plus you should be accepting me for who I am, pssh :b)

Before I continue on, this isn't about MY insecurity. I'm just using it as an example of how you could overcome your insecurity which I'm gonna talk about it like now... I'm really lucky and grateful to have friends who's always telling me I have a nice voice and they like it. Some friends really lectured me about how I should really appreciate it and they just put so much effort into helping me fight it. It really means a lot so it helps build up my self confidence at times, so thanks a ton y'all <3 But then you cannot always depend on people to help fight your own insecurity. In the end, you yourself have to do it. It's not easy, of course it isn't, but at some point you have to really be more confident about it. I was born with this kind of voice, honestly, as much as I dislike it, I have to deal with it. I can't change my voice can I? Like once my friend told me before, it doesn't matter how your voice is like, if you have good words coming out from your mouth, no one would give a shit about your voice. And thinking about it, it's true. In order for you to get people to stop noticing your insecurity, maybe you should start being more confident about it, yes? If you're insecure about your body, do something about it, work out but if you're lazy then just shut up. If you're insecure about your looks, have a good heart because in the end, it's the inner beauty that matters (this is damn cheesy but it sure as hell is true).

Insecurities make us lose our confidence and sometimes it may even make you lose a great opportunity. Don't let that happen to you if not it'll just be a huge waste just because you let something like that get in the way. When you do face situations, think whether it's really worth to let it pull you down. If not you're just gonna be living at the bottom your whole life just because you're not confident about something.

I know so far my thoughts are all over the place, forgive me guys, I seriously cannot think straight.

Also, if you know someone's insecure about themselves, don't be a dick by using it against them. That's just downright mean. You're killing people's confidence and it doesn't make you any better. So if you have nothing nice to say then don't (: Keep it to yourself because you really don't wanna get beaten up. Well, I guess it's good that people are insecure about something. This ensures we don't have super duper egoistic people in this world (but damn, some people's egos are like bloody big. You can see this cloud of ego surrounding them, haha) 
So everyone, don't be too hard on yourselves sometimes. Try to look at things you like about yourself (please not too much) Be nice to yourself alright? It's healthy (: Again, sorry guys it's a pretty crappy post. My mind is just dead.

Love Rachel*

Don't remind me.

Hell yeah my favourite line :3
You have no bloody idea how long it took me to come up with something to blog about. Before I start, if you're reading this, I just want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. It really means a lot to me, seriously. Sometimes I don't know why people read also, interesting meh? :b Okay, who cares. Let's start.

Okay, I'm pretty sure everyone has had a bad experience before. It could be anything like a bad break up, someone has passed away, an accident, friendship problems or anything. I'm not comparing how bad the experiences are because to different people, it could mean differently. So no comparison alright?

Whenever someone has a bad experience, they would most likely say, "I rather die then be this sad" "I don't wanna live anymore" blah blah blah and all sorts of things. It's pretty understandable to act this way after going through shit. It's normal, I admit that I have acted this way before. But at some point of time, we need to learn to move on from this bad experiences. We can sulk about it but there's a time where you have to (favourite line coming up, just saying) tell yourself to get your shit together. Honestly, some people sulk about it for too damn long. In the end, it becomes more of an excuse to not be happy or to gain sympathy. No honey, it does not work that way, alright?

I always tell myself that these shit moments are God's gifts (quoted from one of my friends). You're probably thinking, "Wtf is she thinking? You call getting shit moments God' gift?" I know we have those moments like, "God if you love me so much why did you let me go through this crap... complain complain complain" Well there's a reason behind everything I believe. We go through this moments because they are lessons for us. We're suppose to learn from it, learn from our mistakes. Plus there's a quote that goes,

"Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn.My God do you learn."

Then you may think, "Why the hell am I going through the same damn thing again?" This is because my dear, you have had not learnt your lesson yet. It's like in the exams, you're gonna keep getting the same question wrong if you don't learn it right the first time (but really, would you keep getting the same question wrong? Don't be an idiot, fix that shit up) So in life, you could say it's the same thing. You're gonna keep getting the same lesson until you get that shit right. (If you noticed, I'm off topic)

Back to the topic.

Learn your lesson and move the hell on. No, I did not say it was easy. No one did but you have to in order to be happy. Happiness is a choice so don't say you don't have one. If you're upset about someone who has passed on, think about it. Will the person that passed on be happy seeing you mourning about his/her death your whole life? If I were dead, I sure as hell do not want my family crying about my death their whole life, I want them to just get it over with. Okay la, sulk abit but I don't want them to just be upset for the rest of their lives. As for a bad break up, seriously, you're gonna just cry about it for the rest of your life? Well, you should move on. Don't show your ex, "Oh she/he's super upset without me around. Wow I make such a huge impact on people's life" ego boost ego boost boom boom boom. (yeah, that was sorta unnecessary) There's a reason why you've broken up. Get upset about it (but not for too long) but promise yourself that you will move on.

Give yourself some time to recover from your bad experiences but make sure you learn from it. You don't want to go through the same shit again, would you?

Move on.

Love Rachel*

Secret love codes.

Amazing how it's possible, isn't it? (:

So, it's been a damn long while hasn't it? Exams are officially over for the year, yay! :3 That means more time to blog (not like anyone misses my blog anyway) Alright, enough of "oh I totally miss blogging" and shit. Let's get on with it.

I've finally started reading again, (oh the joy) and the book I'm currently reading is called Rules of Love by Richard Templar. I usually do not read non-ficiton books but so far, I'm really enjoying this book (: In this book, there are basically rules of relationships, or when you're looking for someone to be in a relationship etc. It's not rules that the author came up with but like he says in the books, they are more of reminders. They are things that we tend to forget when we are relationships and I agree to everything he says so far.

Anyway, in the book, Rule #26 says "Recognise the Signs". What does this mean?

He gives this scenario about this couple. The lady says things like, "Oh he doesn't show me that he loves me enough." Then the guy replies, "No I do, how about the coffee I make for you every morning? What about that time I washed your car?" She replies, "That's not romantic, those are just favours" He then replies, "Why the hell do you think do I do it for?"

Do you now realise what this is the scenario trying to say? The scenario above maybe a bit sexist but don't worry girls, I'll even it out. Let's start with the females shall we?

Okay, females, let us get something straight. Your man does not need to buy you flowers or chocolates or do something romantic for you at random times to show that he loves you. Just cause he does not do all these things, that doesn't mean he does not love you right? Maybe the little things he does like, walking you back from class, taking your bag for you (without you asking him to), helping you with something (again, without you asking), letting you vent out your moodiness on them especially when you're on your period etc. You need to realise that maybe through all these things he does, it's the way of showing you love. Don't expect him to constantly get you flowers and whatever okay? Okay la, guys, you should maybe do that once in a blue moon because it can really melt a girl's heart but anyway, girls, appreciate all these things alright? It is just a reminder to all of you ladies that, getting romantic surprises isn't the only way love can be shown.

Okay males, spotlight's on you now. Honestly, when your girl goes out with you, you know how sometimes she takes awhile to get dress and shit then you complain, "why is she taking so freaking long" complain complain complain. Have you ever thought for a second that she's purposely dressing up for you? She wants to look good for you, impress you, be sexy for you or whatever. She's putting effort into her dressing (because to us girls it's just more important to us then to guys) because of you, maybe that tinge of lipstick might attract your attention. Maybe she's trying to be slim for you so that you can be proud of her when you walk hand-in-hand with her yes? You may think, "Oh baby, you don't need to do all of that. I love you for who you are" blah blah blah. True, but I guess she's just using one of the ways to show you that she loves you and all. So guys, maybe compliment her sometimes and she'll be happy that you notice.

Y,a'll get the point now? Your partner does not need to tell you that he/she loves you 500 times a day (and yeah guys, please for the love of God, do not overuse that word. People are throwing the word around and it's already losing it's meaning). Instead of complaining, we should be grateful for the the little things they do for you. They do it because they love you, am I right? If not why the hell would they put in effort? Exactly. It may also be the littlest things they do, to show that they love you.

dont't leave. I'll wait.

Love Rachel*

Timing.

Damn straight. So when someone is early, appreciate it.

Hellooo, blogging from Qyee's house because I have maths tuition tonight, boohoo. I have no homework and I really have no idea what to do so blog time :3

I'm pretty sure you can guess what I'm about to blog judging from my title but I'm just gonna say it anyway. Bloody punctuality, that's what. I think it is very important for a person to be punctual. Okay la, 5-15minutes (depending on the occasion) I can tahan but more than that, hell no. I have met a lot of people in my life who are constantly late and seriously it irritates the shit out of me (unless you have a damn valid reason, fine) I have met people who can be later than an hour and they don't even apologised. It just makes you go what the fuck.

When you are late, it gives the person a bad impression. It  shows your personality and people will then not trust you with things anymore. Plus it's bloody inconsiderate of you to keep the other person waiting, it's not nice. The other person comes right on time but has to wait 30 minutes for you just because you did not know what to wear. If you're go to a meeting 10 minutes late, your boss might want to think twice about promoting you in the future. In my opinion, I think being punctual should be a habit. It might not matter whether you're late or early in certain situations but it's going to be a habit. My family, I won't say they are strict with punctuality but sometimes, we have to wait for one damn person to get ready and then it just pisses everyone off. In the end, everyone's mad at that one freaking princess/prince who took his/her time and kept everyone waiting. It just ruins the mood!

I admit that I'm late sometimes but most of the time is because of someone else that caused me to be late. Again it just pisses me off. It's so embarrassing sometimes when people say "Malaysian time" and we all know what that means = late. It's not 5 minutes late somemore. It n (this only applies to situations with like damn valid reasons). As for fashionably late, well, if you want everyone to look at you and your punctuality does not affect anyone then it is fine.
ormally means from 30minutes to about more than an hour. It's embarrassing and I cannot see why some people are proud of it. Don't give me that better late than never bullshit

I always say be the one waiting instead of making people wait. It's just manners you know. How to be early/ on time? Plan your time properly and sort whatever you need to sort. Don't make other people late, don't make yourself late. If your punctuality really realllyyyy does not matter to you or anyone else involved in that particular event, fine, you're off the hook. And also, don't be selfish. Just because something may not be important to you that doesn't mean you can take your damn time because it may be important to others or maybe someone else actually gives a flying shit about punctuality. Don't be the inconsiderate bitch and make everyone else late. Seriously.

I sound angry don't I? haha because being on time is serious shit.

I'm ready 

Love Rachel*

Fade away

Slowly, like continents,
people drift away.
Unknowingly, unconsciously.
As time flies at the speed of light (3x10 to the power of 8 metre per second)
we no longer do acknowledge 
the existence of what we used to call
"friends"
Even if we try, 
to piece things back like a jigsaw puzzle.
It'll never be the same.
It takes time. But who has that amount of sand
still not falling from their palms?
It's a race against time, we choose to not do things that won't make the ticking worth it.
And if strangers ever do meet eye to eye,
like light and sound waves,
we interfere for a millisecond and go on with life.
Having no change unlike when particles meet.
They collide.
I know what will happen.
It already is going on now. 
So don't tell me lies
to keep my hopes high up in the heavens.
So don't tell me things just to make me feel better.
When you and I 
Both know, the truth is not what you say.
Stop trying to make me live a lie.
Realism is what we need now.
Stop avoiding the fact that we are
slowly..
Fading away.
And soon like stars, we'll disappear from each other's life,
As other lights from the living will outshine us.
You will never know when I am
gone.

I know it doesn't make sense and it's kinda crappy (as usual) but just try interpreting it in a different way (:

Love Rachel*

Live punching bag.

So what will it be?

Long weekend ahead, yay! I impersonated Michelle Yeoh today for some Merdeka quiz thingy at school, I hope I did a good job, what do you all think? I was nervous like crazy ): In the end, I got a trophy and a certificate for it, wooh! (nobody cares, okay) Let's move on with some inspirational shit (hopefully)!

Everyone gets angry, frustrated, moody, so on and so forth. Anything that relates to making you feel like shit basically. So let's say, this morning, your mum scolded you for something you did. She scolds you and nags you on and on about it. For many, this will spoil our day and we just feel so shit because your mum "has ruined your day". Yes? Then you tweet, "Wth la, early in the morning go nag me." "Day ruined, thanks mom." "Spoil my mood only" and whatever else you would tweet. You then go to school all moody and you just hate everyone around you. If someone bugs you when you're moody, what do you do? The usual thing you would do is let it out on them right? "Dude fuck off!" you shout then everyone gets so afraid of you and leave you alone. 

Sounds familiar?

It's obvious right? When you're not in a good mood, you just let it out on everyone and in the end, honestly, nothing is solved. I admit that I've done this a lot last time, I do it less now though because I always tell myself to think twice before taking action. Don't you think it is a selfish act first of all? You take it out on your innocent friend and then who knows because of you, their day might be ruined as well. Secondly, lashing it out at other people won't solve whatever you're facing, yes? Doing this, you might even hurt yourself or others especially when you take it out on people and objects. Some people punch the walls or break things when they are angry then they injured themselves THEN they tweet about how they got hurt and whatever their sob story is. Plus, it gives others a bad impression of yourself. Yeah, you'll be all like, "who gives a shit on what others think? I'm pissed" Well yeah right honey, if you don't care, why then are the majority of us searching for acceptance in life? (okay, off topic). Continuing, people will know you do not have self control, you're easily affected by emotions. This will then affect the decisions they make in the future that will involve you.

If you're really moody, let your whoever know. "I'm feeling like shit today, so please leave me alone." Yes, it raises questions and all, that's the consequences, but it's better than taking it out on people. If you're the type that takes out your emotions on objects, well, take in consideration of what objects you are taking it out on. Scream into your pillow, crush used papers (recycle after that okay? Save the environment. See you're giving back :D ), stress ball and any other ideas. Just shout in the shower, I do that. There was once I got really pissed, I threw my bag at my home's world map photo frame. So if you were to come to my house and look at the world map, you will see there's no glass because I broke it when I was mad. I felt so guilty after and realised my mistake. 

What I can tell you is that, think twice before letting it out. Will it bring you consequences you wouldn't wanna face? Who will you hurt? What will you lose from it? Yes, it's hard to gain self control when all you wanna do is punch everyone but you see, if you can have self control even though you're in this state, you're gonna increase your tolerance level, less stress. When you're moody, calm yourself down, don't let things spoil your day, it's really not worth it. My friend told me this, "Your mood in the morning, sets the mood of your day." Amen brother. So guys, don't do things that will make you regret later because you failed to control yourself. Not good.

Thanks for reading guys! (:

Neglected but...

Love Rachel*

 

I Can't Say

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Hey guys, just thought of writing a poem. It does not reflect on how I'm feeling, I just wanted to write one since it's been awhile. You may not understand the poem because there are meanings behind it. It's pretty crappy but enjoy (:

Pacing up and down,
all I managed was a frown.
Wooden planks my feet tapped on
engravings once there but now, gone.

My eyes squeezed tight
Thinking with every ounce of might.
None made an appearance,
all I needed was reassurance.

The right words I cannot form,
only distracted by the coming thunderstorm-
"Focus!" I scolded
Good was what I intended.

Some things I cannot say,
But guilt is slowly eating me away.
It is time to speak or die
as for now, I will have to lie.

Love Rachel*

Sloths shouldn't wear shoes

Yes please.

Source: weheartit.com

Hello everyone! Sorry I haven't blogged in awhile, was too engrossed in studying (cheyyy :b ) Anyway, so I found out some unexpected people read my blog. Guess what guys, my mum reads my blog too and she's totally cool with what I blog about. APPROVED. haha. I honestly don't know what to blog about. I'm currently waiting for something to inspire me as I'm writing this. 

Okay. Just came back from taking a dump and I know what to blog about! Woohoo. (don't judge)

Do you see on all these complaints on twitter sometimes? "Why am I so fat? boohooo" "Why can't I be as smart as her!" and etc etc. I know once in awhile we complain and yeah that's totally cool. I complain as well it's normal but the issue here is, some people complain way way wayyyyy too much. At times I see people tweeting, complaining about the same thing over and over again. Okay fine, it's your twitter, you can tweet whatever you want but really, isn't it irritating? Sometimes I really cannot take it, they keep repeating the same thing. If you're think you're fat, tweeting about it is soooooo gonnna burn shit loads of calories right? Why don't do something about it, change your lifestyle, start doing some exercise or something. If you're think you aren't smart, again, do something about it. Study, work extra hard. Yeah some people are like naturally smart, I will give you that. If you know you aren't very smart, then you have to take the effort to put in extra time to study and then you'll be able to be at their level. It sucks but you can't have everything in life can you? I'm a slow learner, I admit. I have to work extra hard just to be on par with the top students in class (It sucks) Sometimes I just think it's so damn unfair but what to do? I either cry about life being unfair or I get my shit together (I love this line) and not be a failure in life. Same applies to being fit. Some people, naturally slim (lucky bastards right?) but oh well, you gotta deal with it.

You see, the more you say, "Why am I fat" "Why am I dumb" "Why do I suck at this" blah blah blah, the more you will believe you are and sooner or later you will become what you say. Your mind is always telling yourself all this negativity and it will become a part of you. Sometimes you just gotta be nice to yourself, everyone deserves to be praised sometimes. Well, if you aren't gonna do anything about it then shut up. Seriously, sulk all the hell you want and nothing's gonna change except for the fact that someone might punch you in the face for your annoying and repetitive tweets (iwontpunchyoudontworry :D). If you're making an effort to change that, good for you but keep in mind that progress takes time. Don't expect to see such a drastic change, cut yourself some slack and get there bit by bit. You don't see any buildings being done in a year. The construction workers don't just go, "Oh let's just demolish this damn building cause we're slow."(unless they run out of money of course) Start by being positive, tell yourself, "I'll be.... if I keep this up" (another favourite line coming up) Negativity is like a disease, it spreads. So what you gotta do is get rid of that negativity in you and complain less (: Sometimes we just gotta be grateful in life. If you don't like whatever it is, change it, if it's not changing, maybe take a look at yourself and change yourself. Cool?

Again, it's your own twitter, yes tweet all you want. I'm not stopping you. Just stating how I feel again. In a nutshell, complain less and do something about it. Be more positive in life (it helps, no kidding). If you're not gonna do anything about it then really, stop complaining. In the end, people will just say you're annoying. No?

Oh oh, before I end my post, let me just tell you this. My friend and I were talking about taking care of a hedgehog. So when I take it to my friend's house, I'll let it sit on the front seat next to me. Can you imagine a baby hedgehog wearing a seatbelt?!?! DO YOU KNOW HOW SUPER ADORABLE THAT WILL BE? CAN YOU NOT PICTURE IT, OMG. so cute :3 okay stop. (To my friend, are you happy now? Best post ever right?)

SO CUTE I CANNOT.

Thank you so much for reading <3

Everybody lies and they bury it deep inside

Love Rachel*

Final breath.

Would you? Would curiosity take over?
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Had a lot of free time today, woohoo so I get to blog. Yay! My friend and I talked about it today, so from the title, I guess you can sorta know what it's about.

We all know one day, we're just going to die. Right? We're gonna live this pathetic life we have and just die after that (Ok la, not pathetic la). Anyway, does the thought of death scare you? It scares me, really. I always wonder how the hell am I going to die? Will I die tomorrow? Will I die in my sleep? All the uncertainties. Why death scares me is because, I'm scared of how I would feel when I know I'm about to die. The feeling right before your whole body shuts off, I'm scared of how it would feel.

I can't talk much about death because well, I'm very well and alive right now so I can't say from experience. I'm practically blogging my thoughts, mostly questions. What's gonna happen after we die? Where we gonna go? Who's gonna cry for me? Who's gonna move on with no problem and all these sort of things.

So sometimes I ask myself, if we're gonna die, why do I bother keeping fit and try my best to look good? Why am I studying my ass off if I'm just gonna like put it all to waste by dying? I guess, you know you want to leave this world with something good, you leave a good name people will always remember and whatsoever. I mean nobody wants to leave the world and people are gonna be like, "that guy who always got shit marks in exam died, damn, sorry bro." I'm pretty sure none of you want that right? You want people to be like, "That really awesome and smart girl? She's dead? OMG, what a pity. Sorry for your loss."

Death can happen anytime (yeah no shit sherlock) That's why people are always going "Carpe Diem!" and all of that. I guess yeah, we should seize everyday because, we're close to death every single second. There, you're now even closer to death by a second.

I'm really sorry if this post disappointed you but I hope it makes you think and be grateful. Remember that other people around you could just leave you like that. That's why we need to appreciate the people we love before they're gone, We have to remember from time to time that we should be grateful and thankful for the people around us. We just don't know when you know. I guess that's what death teaches us sometimes, helps us appreciate everything around us. Again, sorry but it's mostly questions because I'm inexperienced (lol) Yeah I know it's a sad post but it's something for you to think about.
I shall dedicate this post to all the people who have left this Earth, regardless of who they are and what they have done. I know someone out there has loved them or at least been acknowledge.

*moment of silence*

We won't know what we have until it's gone.

Love Rachel*

Why so desperate?

Maybe more than a few.
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Hey hey, I'm blogging because I'm just too lazy to do anything else since I've finished almost all of my homework, teehee! Holidays are about to come to end, this sucks. Didn't have much of a holiday in the end anyway, pssh.

So I was scrolling through my twitter to look for something to blog about and yes I've found something to blog about. (See, twitter can inspire you once in a while). As you can see from my title, the word,  desperate.
I'll narrow down to relationship wise. I will say here honestly that I have friends who are desperate for "love", well in their eyes it's love but I guess from what I see, it's more of, "I just need someone to like me so I feel like I'm actually wanted." Yeah, sounds pretty darn mean but this most likely might be the real reason, they just don't want to admit it. They hide away from that fact and continue to believe that they aren't desperate but really, you can see how desperate someone is from what they tweet (lol), from the way to react to the guys/girls they are talking to and etc etc.

I'm not sure how to put it in words but some of the people I know who are desperate are either broken up or just single for too long. If you have just broken up or have been single for a damn long while and you feel that you are not desperate, okay, good for you. (But again, the most desperate ones will definitely admit they aren't desperate at all, hmm? Kidding:b) You see, when you've broken up, you'll feel empty, you feel that a big part of your life has gone missing. I know how it feels because I've gone through it. You need someone to fill in that space, you need someone to love you, to be there to comfort you and stuff like what your ex did and you refuse to wait for someone so long again to be your next partner. So what do you do? You throw yourself at your closest girl/guy friends, you lead them on unintentionally and then bad shit happens because of your act out of desperation. Yes? No?

Also, for people who have been for single for too long and most of your friends are like smooching with their partners around you. You feel the need to have someone as well, you might feel the need to fit in or I don't know, the trend these days are like, "If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend it means that someone actually wants you and if you're single means, nobody wants you." Before I continue on, I will say that I completely oppose to that "trend" because having a partner does not define your status or whatever the hell people call it these days. No, a partner doesn't define anything. Anyway, where was I? Oh, yeah, just wanna fit in and shit, or again, you just wanna feel the love because love is such an amazing feeling and all that bullcrap so the same thing happens. You do whatever it takes for someone to like you and again, it's out of desperation. That's not how you get someone to like you, it's just so terribly wrong.

I honestly find, people finding love out of desperation is disgustiIt's like you're willing to throw your pride and dignity away just to get someone to love you. Then you start doing all sorts of things, like purposely seeking attention, flirting for the wrong reasons, stalking...etc. Really, and when my friends do get desperate, it's just so damn disappointing. It's feelings you're talking about here plus desperation I feel is a selfish act. You're involving other people's feelings as well. You can differentiate between couples who actually like each other and couples who are just plain desperate. Just be more observant and you'll know.
How to not be desperate? Well, simple as that. Patience. If you're they type that takes relationships seriously, then just wait. People will come around. The power is in your hands to act if you want to but be smart, not desperate.

Reminding y'all again, I blog my opinions, so if you do not agree with me, I respect that :) Thanks for reading!

Love Rachel*

ng.

Who's to judge? Really?

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Ollo! hehe. It's already the second week of holiday, where did time freaking go... Seriously. I really think the Earth is spinning faster and faster. God help us all. Anyway, I hope everyone has been putting their free time to good use *ehem ehem*. Finally found time to blog or got into the mood to blog, lol.

Moving on...

I'm pretty sure everyone has kept their secrets, why? Why do you keep them? Why do you not tell them to someone? Because you're afraid someone might judge you. You're afraid someone might not look at you the same way they did before. Some of you may say, "I don't judge." Oh come on, seriously? We can't promise someone that we won't judge because we will judge either consciously or sub-consciously and that would be a lie. Don't tell me when you see a group of Bangladeshi men walking towards you and you won't think they're perverted or something. (I'm not being racist but truth to be told, most of us do think that way, don't we?) We judge people right there, on the spot. You may not say it out aloud but your mind has already made a judgement on what or who you see.

I do judge people sometimes, by how they present themselves. Well, sometimes people do show their personality through the way they dress and it's not always a case of bad fashion sense (I kinda think now, it's merely just used as an excuse) To me, I think the way you present yourself to the world, it's important. You don't need to like look super fabulous or be super slim or whatever. Just be decent. Well, because people do judge you. Let's say you're the boss of some fancy schmancy company and you want to hire a worker who's gonna hold a damn important post. Two male workers walk in, one dresses like he doesn't give a shit about anything but is very capable of doing the job and then there's another one with the suit & tie, looks like he's damn capable but he actually can't do shits. You then as the boss, would then think who'll be capable at first impression? The suit and tie right? That's judging right there. Intentionally or not. In a good way or a bad way, it's still judging. We really can't escape it.

The question is, why do we judge others? I guess it's because we have this set perception of how we see things, how we see the world and in our eyes, your perception is based on your perspective, perceived needs. That is your reality and you expect people to conform to it (again subconsciously). We then judge others because they do not meet the standards of our reality, they're not what you expect them to be. So you then say, "No you're not suppose to be fat, it's wrong." and then a fat person can then say, "It's okay to be fat. There's nothing wrong to it. You're the one who's too skinny" or whatever it is. We can't expect the whole world to have the same "reality" right? If not it'll just end up being a communist sorta thing. (This is my theory, at least.)

So I guess we cannot avoid judging... BUT that doesn't mean you can just judge however you like. Try maybe putting yourself in someone else's perspective and you'll probably be more understanding. Everyone is just basically misunderstanding each other, we just don't take the initiative to put ourselves in other people's shoes and see how they see the world. If you do, it might even widen your perspective of reality. We can't always point fingers and say, "Oh society judges, society judges." You make up society as well, so if we all be understanding for each other, life would most likely be a little bit better for all of us bit by bit. If you're gonna judge harshly, just keep it in your head. Because you're gonna get judged for being a judgmental bitch. But also, don't hide away your judgements, stand up for what you believe in but then put it in a nice way la :b In the end, don't jump straight to conclusions about people until you really get to know 'em.

Really like this quote.

I hope I didn't bore anyone. Thanks for reading anyway (:

Am I ready?

Love Rachel*

Apparently we're over-connected.

No I'm not antisocial, pssh!
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I have a lot of work and studying to finish up tonight but I'm just gonna blog anyway because I know what I wanna blog about. If I delay my blogging, I'll probably forget (I'm damn forgetful). Continuing...

Alright, if you're from my school, you would know that during Encik Hanif's speech, he mentioned about how our generation is over-protective, over-connected, overwhelmed. Right? And I really have to agree there, lol. Social networking has really taken over our lives if you really think about it. You would most likely, have a twitter account, whatsapp, instagram and facebook. I have these four apps, not sure about you guys. Haha.

As much as I'm into social networking, I have to say, I really hate it sometimes. For example, dinner time. It's the time when we're suppose to bond with the family and shits right? But really, how many of us actually put the phones down and talk BEFORE and AFTER the food(not when you're eating but omg, people actually use their phones while eating). I pity my grandparents sometimes because the younger people in the family are using phones and my grandparents are just sitting right there.Then my granpda will purposely take out his Nokia phone and act like us:b haha I also do not like when we're eating and then there's this phone on the table vibrating, that irritates me to the max because I find it rude. Which is why I always keep my phone on my lap or in my pocket. I admit that I use my phone at the dinner table sometimes and when I see other people using it, I realise how rude it is and immediately put my phone down.

Another scenario would be, when I hang with my friends. You know we all go to someone's house to watch movie and stuff. There will be a few antisocial asstards who will use their phones during the movie and ask what happened in the movie once in a while. It pisses me off because, hello, you wanna go to someone's house and hang, but then you're using your phone. Might as well stay at home right, lol. It defeats the whole purpose right?

Why are we so attached to our phones? Why do we need to constantly go on twitter or talk to someone through whatsapp? And if there's nothing much on twitter, or no one to talk to on whatsapp, we play games. This is my theory:

"We're bored" 

We cannot just wait for food to come, we need to do something to fill time whether it's productive or not. And since you're already whatsapping someone, you'll just continue on anyway. I know you constantly refresh your twitter timeline hoping for at least one new tweet to appear, lol. Then when you're bored, you just keep tweeting on and on that you're bored. Do something about it then, "but I'm lazy." Exactly, so shut up and stop complaining. But really, sometimes when you tweet something, no one cares or people just see tweets to be busybody. We're so into twitter like it's our newspaper already, lol. Daily information of other people's lives. But seriously, do you ever wonder why you tweet? If you send me to camp and tell me not to use my phone, sure no problem, maybe once in a while to tell my mum how I'm doing but that's about it. I'm proud to say I'm not very attached to my phone but sadly, I do use my phone at the dinner table sometimes, I use my phone unnecessarily. I'm trying to change my habit. You know when you're over-attached to your phone when you use it to "escape from reality" or your problems. Seriously, I have friends like that and I think that is a terrible way to escape. But you shouldn't be escaping from your problems to begin with. It upsets me that some people need their phones every-freaking-where they go. 

So when you go out with your family whoever, lay off the phone. Use it when you only need it. You're suppose to TALK to someone with your MOUTH. Not through whatsapp when you're only 5 metres away, lol. Seriously, if we keep this up, people will not know how to communicate anymore. I will definitely try to stay away from my phone more often and do more productive things instead. Think about it, why do you tweet? (I also don't know why) Why do you keep refreshing the same damn timeline, when you know only one or two tweets may appear? Lay off the phones man, it's about manners and also not being too attached to a damn object. Some of you may think I'm old-fashioned and may oppose to what I say but in the end, this is what I think. If you don't think social networking is killing our society, fine. But give a good thought about it. 

It doesn't feel the same. Maybe I'm overthinking.

Love Rachel*

Education *yawns*

Dedicating this post to my mother :)

Yay, blog time! I actually have a few topics on my mind but I chose this because I felt like it :b

Anyway, I'm pretty sure we had times where we just don't wanna study, feel like dropping out of school, flunk all our tests and just don't give a shit about our studies anymore. I know I had my time. I remember it was during the 2nd monthly exams. I had trouble catching up with all my work and I was so far behind lessons. So in class, I was kinda lost. I had to study like crazy and my god, I was just damn stressed and frustrated. I thought of dropping out of school and I was dead serious. I actually told my mum about it. "Mum, can I just drop out of school? I can't take it anymore." But then I realised, I've been studying since kindergarten. My kindergarten school was pretty expensive, I study IGCSE syllabus in Sri KL (which we all know is not a very cheap school) plus all my activities and tuition fees (expensive as well). My mum raises my three sisters alone, so basically she's the only one who works her ass off just for us. Before I move on, I'm not bragging and I'm not comparing my life to anyone else's. I've talked to my mum about these things a lot of times. I've considered quitting my sports and decreasing my tuition because I don't wanna make a bigger hole in my mum's purse but she always tells me that if its gonna benefit me, she will be willing to pay. This obviously makes me feel so guilty and upset inside.

So whenever I don't feel like studying or choose not to work hard during training, my brain immediately thinks of my mother. My brain will be like, "You wanna waste mummy's money is it?" And automatically, I'll study hard or train even harder. I guess you can say my mum is one of the reasons why I will myself to study so hard or put my heart into training. 'Cause I don't want her to regret putting in so much money for me just for my future.

Continuing, I have friends who really don't give a flying shit about their studies. They just don't give a shit and it upsets me because I always think, "Your parents sent you to an expensive school and you don't even try to study or work hard." It doesn't matter whether you're on bad terms with your parents or not, I don't think this gives you the right to not study plus, it's for your future unless you don't even give a shit then fine. Just drop out of school, don't let precious money go to waste lol. But for those who actually care about your parents, even a tad bit, really. Think about the amount of money they spent on you just for your education. At least try? I'm pretty sure a lot of parents out there work hard to earn money for the sake of your family. So just do your part, study hard. It's not easy, I know, of course I know how it feels like. I can slack like shit but I always choose not to because my mum comes into my mind when my brain feels like slacking. I'm really not sure about you guys but I hope this in some ways inspires you to study harder or work harder, even if it's just a little bit. So maybe when you feel like slacking? Think of your parents maybe?

I know this may not be a good topic because I'm not sure how are your relationships with your parents but in the end, they are your parents. But this is how I feel about it *shrugs* So do something in return at least, I'm pretty sure they will appreciate it, even if they don't show it.

Disappointed.

Love Rachel*

Do you like it sticky?

Serenity
Source: http://4lick.me/

I is back! Got some positive feedback from some of my friends so I'm pretty inspired to keep on blogging and I really appreciate the kind words! (: Just to let you know, I just type my thoughts out and I don't organise them. I only re-read it to correct my English if not surely there'll be people who say that my England very powderful. Moving on.

Okay, so do you like it sticky? ;) Dirty minded bastards. hahahaha. What I mean is attachment. You could be attached to your books, your phones, boyfriend, girlfriend and even mothers (seriously). Well I'm gonna focus this attachment topic mainly on boyfriend and girlfriend. It's one of the main factors that contribute to a strong relationship, in my opinion. Many people would have different views on it but for me, couples shouldn't be too attached to each other or be not attached enough (I didn't know this was possible until I met friends who had partners like that) so you should be in the middle.

I feel that attachment is important because it's all about space. As a couple, you should respect each other's space and know how far you should distant yourself from your partner. I've seen some couples where one side, is like super attached to the partner and the other partner is like trying to get far away as possible. End up, it's just like a lost puppy following a stranger. Both sides should even out their attachment. Let's have a scenario.
Hmm, let's say there's this couple, Bob and Boblina(these were the first two names that came into my mind so don't judge, tq). Bob's the super attached boyfie and Boblina is the girlfriend who's not attached enough :b Bob tries to get closer to Boblina by being more attached but instead it's actually pushing Boblina further away. If I were in Boblina's position, I would just be damn annoyed. Personally, I cannot stand boyfriends who are super sticky (attached), it's very irritating. Its like "back off boy, I have a life too." So Bob, what do you do, to get Boblina to get closer to you....? You distance yourself away from her, that's what you do. It's not gonna be easy because you're all so new to it and over-attachment is damn hard to overcome but if you want your girl back, you do what it takes. Sooner or later, Boblina's gonna be wondering, "Where my lost puppy at? Why he ain't sticking to me no more?" This not only helps Boblina to grow more attached (because she's always so used to having Bob stuck to her) and it helps Bob to be less attached.

Sounds easy but it definitely isn't at all. Attachment is pretty difficult to change but all for the better of the relationship right? I think this is the best way for a relationship to work out properly, equal attachment (: But I know there are people out there who feel that being abit more attached might work better. Well, whatever floats your boat. A couple should respect each other's space and know how much space they should give each other. Let them go out with their man friends or let the girl have her gossip time with her girlies.
Maybe before getting into a relationship, a couple should compromise. How much space are you two comfortable with, and all that bullshit. Just sort it out so you guys won't have so much problems. Trust me, over-attachment and under-attachment can lead to a shit loads of problems and you guys have to deal with a lot of problems by then. So in a nutshell, be mediumly-attached? (no it's not a word, smart arse)

"Try not to confuse 'attachment' with 'love'. Attachment is about fear and dependency, and has more to do with love of self than love of another. Love without attachment is the purest love because it isn't about what others can give you because you're empty. It is about what you can give others because you're already full."

-Yasmin Mogahed-                                

What am I suppose to say to you?

Love Rachel*

"Fat people are indiscipline"

Don't let society choose for you.
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When was the last time I blogged? Months? It's gonna be hard for me to blog consistently because I'm starting to study already. I'm sacrificing some of my free time right now cause I think this topic is worth blogging about.

My title, "Fat people are indiscipline" is actually a quote by one of the Star Newspapers writer. She wrote an article about "No benefit in being fat". It pissed tons of people off and it actually went international. That's how serious it got. Unfortunately, the article was removed off the internet and I didn't get the chance to read it. It was actually a topic discussed on Business FM today (I had no choice okay, my grandpa doesn't like hitz.fm, pssh!)

I agree and yet disagree to that statement. Why do I disagree? I don't think you can judge how discipline someone is by their size can you? A person can be very discipline in his/her work or whatever it is and yet choose not wanting to be fit. There are some people as well who actually cannot control their weight due to medical problems. I heard on the radio that some medications actually cause you to be fat or you're born with it. Shocker right? Didn't know it was possible. And why do I agree? Well, when you want to maintain being fit, it takes a lot of discipline. You gotta bring yourself to exercise, eat clean, resist all the tempting food, make sure you exercise consistently blah blah blah. I can personally relate to this because I'm a person who believes that everyone should not be overweight or underweight but have a healthy BMI. It's difficult for a person to do this because well, you needa be darn discipline especially to be consistent at it.

Oh the author also mentioned that most of the CEOs are fat people and their neck not visible (meaning like triple chin or something). Partially true, because most of the CEOs I've met are well, a little round. Okay, you're a CEO, you're rich, you don't give a shit whether you're fat. "I have money bitches, who cares!" True true but in my opinion, I think CEOs should be presentable... It gives a good impression doesn't it? You see this average sized man in a suit and you see a round man with a suit, who would you have a better impression of? Obviously the first option. Yeah we all say, well don't judge blah blah blah. But really, let's be realistic here, who in the world wouldn't judge? We've been brought up in a society that has already set on how people should look and be. You see a fat man, eating like a shit load of food, what do you think instantly?.... Exactly. And yeah social discrimination, she discriminated "fat people" on newspaper. You idiot, on newspaper?! It was pretty shallow of her to say things like that.

Oh, she also said that fat people are dishonest because they lie about the amount of food they eat. Well, a lie is a lie... Everyone lies, so it makes everyone dishonest, no? The author, I feel, just wrote her thoughts out. She didn't use the right words and she judged fat people straight away. She made a huge mistake because when you write these sort of things and publish it, people will punch you in the face man. She kinda reflects what society is, "judgmental" no? But regardless, I feel everyone should try their best to stay fit because it's healthy for you. And I have to agree that there is no benefit being fat. Be big because of muscles not fats. Sorry if I've offended anyone but this is just what I think. Thanks Y'all! :)

Love Rachel*