Haters, back off

(I like the flower)

It's almost towards the end of 2014, crazy right? Make the most of what you have left!

Ok, so my post today is pretty direct right? It's about haters! YAY haters, the attention is on you now! *cheers* I've talked about haters before but I don't think I've ever mentioned about dealing with them. So let us begin!

I was on my blog last night making some adjustments when I saw the an anon on my cbox by the name of ".." , commented a hate and a statement to attack my feelings. And I deleted it not because I'm a coward (well, we all know who the true coward is in this case) but because first of all, I do not welcome hate on my blog. The whole point of my blog is to (hopefully) help people who just need advice and who may be a little shy to ask for help so through my blog, I hope to give as much help to others. I do not want lifeless anons giving out negative vibes on my blog, it's just unacceptable. I want to give out positive vibes instead. Second, I know the anon was trying to make me feel bad about myself and I didn't think it was worth feeding him/her the attention that anon is "craving" by replying him/her.

You might think I'm giving attention to that anon by making this post, no I'm not. You think that anon so special meh? I'm making this post for ALL THE HATERS out there. Don't worry haters, there's enough attention for everyone:) Share share ok?

I used to take anonymous hate very personally because whatever they say will be very insulting and may hurt your feelings. I'm sure most of you have gone through that so we're on the same boat! You then get like really angry and worked up, making you CAPS LOCK THAT HATER!!!! (The deadly caps lock, gee, I'm terrified) But think about it guys, why waste your energy/effort/feelings on an ANONYMOUS person that has nothing to do with your life? Is that anon worth your time? Are you seriously going to reply or shout at that person because he/she does not like you? Are you going to stoop as low as that hater? Plus, he/she is anonymous! More reason for you to just ignore him/her! You see, haters are like an insignificant speck of dust on your shirt. How do you get rid of them? Just brush them off! Ta-da! Hater-free!Product guaranteed ;) !

Keep in mind that, haters will always be there, there will always be someone out there who will not like your presence or whatever you do. They will try to bring you down, drain your self-esteem, see you in pain so that they can feel better about themselves. But, it is up to YOU whether you're willing to feed them the attention that they want. It is up to YOU whether you are gonna accept what they said and take it personally. It is up to YOU whether you're going to let some pathetic anonymous hate bring you down. Form a bubble around yourself and whenever someone sends you hate, let it bounce off the bubble. It's like a selective permeable membrane, only let the good in and not the hate :) You're much more than that to let some sad, hateful anon make an impact on you.

*shines spotlight* Now, at the blue corner, weighing 50 tons and more....

THE..... HATERRRRRRRS!!! 

Okay, let's be honest here, almost everyone out there is a hater. There will be someone we do not like, it's normal. You'll feel the need to send anonymous hate to the other person, then what? Do you ACTUALLY feel better about yourself? What are you trying to achieve here? Send anonymous hate so everyone will hate that person too? Exactly no! First of all, you should be ASHAMED at yourself for even sending hate anonymously. That is such a cowardly act! You want to hate someone but you don't wanna show your face because you're afraid people will hate on you too? See, it's a cycle! And if you're trying to put them down, well, you are really wrong my dear hater because that individual will have friends and family out there who will love him/her. They'll help them back up, sooner or later, they'll forget about the hate you gave them in the first place. I'm sorry to tell you but your plan will not work, the whole world is not going to hate that person with some anonymous who has no balls to admit who he/she is. 

So everyone, if you hate someone, why do you even use up all your energy to go to someone's profile or wherever, go anonymous, spend your time to send that person hate? Are you really that lifeless? Are you seriously going to spend your effort on someone you hate when you can spend it on something else that is actually worth your time? If you don't like that person, delete him/her, remove that person from wherever, just get rid of that person from your life, duh. It's really that simple, guys.

If you're receiving hate, just delete them off. They're not worth your time or your feelings. If you're gonna care about what they said to you, that means that they have won, so don't let them win! Remember, haters will always always always be there BUT they cannot enter your bubble of anti-hate and awesomeness.

And dear anonymous haters, seriously, stop your cowardly act. It's so childish and immature, are you seriously going to stoop that low? It doesn't make you a better person nor does it actually make you feel better about yourself. I'm sure you can spend those time with someone who actually loves you okay? Stop spreading hate, especially anonymous hate. (I'm sorry, I just cannot stand how cowardly sending anonymous hate is) Spread the love and good vibes instead ~~~~

So what right if you get hate? You got your bubble, be one with the bubble. Maybe you can say that if someone sends you hate, "Be on with the bubble OF AWESOMENESS" or drop by my blog and read this again. Alright, gonna get some of my grandma's hakka mee for dinner:3 Thank you for reading y'all! I hope you readers will take in what I've said and apply it to your life! Remember, 

HATERS, BACK OFF!

-Miranda Sings-

Love Rachel*

What is love?

Love is "Drive safely". 

Love is "Tell me when you get home safe". 

Love is respecting each other by saying please and thank you. 

Love is opening the door for her. 

Love is understanding each other. 

Love is holding each others' hands when you're out for a walk. 

Love is being there for one another.

Love is telling her how beautiful she is when she's at her worst.

Love is telling him how brave he is when he has to face his fears.

I've realised that many people don't have long lasting relationships because they don't "work out" (That's what they call it nowadays). We all see on twitter and instagram with really sweet and beautiful couple pictures that just makes you go "awww, I want a relationship like that." Then we all make it our "#relationshipgoals". Well guess what people? That picture does not show their relationship's journey.

We see pictures like that and so when we actually get into it, we would expect the same. Now, that's where you are oh-so-wrong! You realised that when you get into a relationship, it's not all sweet and happy, where you two hold hands and skip around the grassy meadow filled with butterflies. No. To get to that grassy meadow, you gotta go through shit first because that's how it is. Don't just get into a relationship and expect to be happy right away. That's not how it works. If you want to get into a relationship just so you can post happy couple pictures then you have some serious thinking to do and mature up.

If you wanna get into a relationship, first, you gotta be ready to commit because it ain't ALL about you anymore. You're sharing your life with someone else. You have to be ready for heartbreaks, getting angry, arguments, crying and whatever else that goes on in relationships. I'm not trying to scare you and tell you not to get into relationships. It's just part of getting into one. It is how it is. Yeah, try sweeping all your problems under the carpet just so you can avoid arguing and "be happy". At some point in your relationship, believe me when I tell you this, you'll be so sick of pretending to be happy. Your problems won't fit under the carpet no more and either one of you are going to burst.

You can say I'm really old -fashioned but when I get into relationships it's because I think that person has the potential to be my spouse and so I try my best with my partner to work towards that "goal". No, I'm thinking far ahead, I'm just working our relationship towards something. But if you know that you're gonna break up with that person anyway, seriously, why bother getting into a relationship in the first place? You're gonna waste your time,effort, money blah blah. Also, if you realise that you can no longer be happy with your partner, call the relationship off. No point dragging it because you're afraid to hurt him/her. Dragging the relationship is just going to make things worst and more painful, so do you and your partner a favour and just leave. It's all for the better but of course, give it another chance before you decide that. 

What I'm basically trying to say is that, if you're going to get into a relationship and want to be happy.You have to work for it. It's like how when you do a sport and you want to earn a skill, you have to do shit loads of strength work and fixing your technique to achieve that skill. It's a painful journey but most of the time it's worth it. Relationships aren't scary like what normally people would think. It's "scary" because they're afraid of hurting people and getting hurt themselves. Let me tell you that, "hurt" is inevitable, unavoidable or any other synonym that relates which is why usually many partners cannot confront each other which is very bad. It's part of being in a relationship, you take it or you leave it. *shrugs* I wouldn't say relationships are a burden, I think it has changed me for the better and I've learnt a lot through experience. And nope,I do not regret anything.

There's always pros and cons for everything, it's just which side are you going to fight for with your heart? And one more very important thing I always tell my friends, if you cannot be happy ON YOUR OWN, don't expect relationships to make you happy. No one is in charge of your own happiness except you. So if you cannot be happy on your own, don't you dare get into a relationship because it'll end up becoming a huge ass mess. I know right, why the hell are you taking advice from a 17 year old girl? What does she know about love? haha. It's true, love is a huge word, it can mean anything to anyone but I'm just sharing this from experience. Accept love and share the love. Love makes us human :)

Once again, thank you for reading my posts, I'll try my best to update whenever I can/ whenever I'm inspired. Please let me know what you would like me to blog about so I can blog more often, if not, you gotta wait :b Thank you again my lovely readers <3

Love Rachel*

Future! *dum dum dummmmm*

Someday:)

Hello there :) Alright I'm going to be flying off to Bangkok on the 30th Nov and I'll be gone for 5 days so don't expect any posts until 4th Dec alright? Also, I understand that some of you would like me to update regularly. About that, I will try my best to do so but I cannot promise anything because I usually blog when I'm inspired by something I've seen or something I've been doing and that does not happen very often :b But I'll give you my word that I'll try my hardest.

Let us begin!

So, as most of you may know I'm done with my high school life (sigh) and I'm going to college soon. Many of you may have not gone through this stage yet and some of you may be way past it. When you come to this point of time, you're usually wondering what I want do I want to study? What do I want to be? Where do I want to study? Etc.

And that's what I'm going through right now, I have a lot of tough decisions to make. You see, I really want to study marine biology and this "major" is not very well-known in this country and then career opportunities come into play blah blah blah. A lot of people ask me what I want to do and when I tell them "Oh I wanna do marine biology". Some of them may respond like "What...?" "Isn't it more of a hobby?" OR "It totally suits you!""Go for it!" I have all these people encouraging me and at the same time discouraging me so honestly, it messes up my decision all the time. To be fair, I did research on other majors but in the end, I cannot see myself doing anything else except marine biology (Although some job test said I should be a coach, haha) So, I guess I'm going ahead with marine biology guys. But I want you to remember that whatever you want to do, it is entirely up to you. Do not let anyone affect your decision because it is YOUR life. This is your future we're speaking of and not theirs. ok?

To some of the younger ones or some who have not decided on what to do, seriously, don't rush it. Older people would be like,"You should have an ambition at this age" blah blah blah. Forget about them, there is really no rush on what you should decide on what you really want to study. If you really have no clue on what to do, you should keep your options wide open and don't close any doors yet until you are so damn sure that you don't want to go on that route. Even so, the most important thing is even though you have no idea what you want to be, you must have that passion or drive to push you. Don't be like, "Oh I don't know what I want to do, never mind, I'll find out but in the mean time, imma just sit here and rot." If you do that, you are never going to find out what you want to pursue because you're not getting off your ass to learn new things. Always have the drive to learn new things, and when you learn a lot, you'll find out what you really want to do in the end. Especially the younger ones, don't get your knickers in a twist about it but remember to have the drive to keep learning new things. When the time comes, you better make damn sure you do all your research, ask around about the university programmes, talk to people. It'll help:)

I know we're all afraid to make the wrong decisions, who isn't? We're afraid of anything we have no control over and in this case, it is our future. But I always believe that everything happens for a reason. In the end, no matter what route you take, I'm sure things will turn out okay. You may not turn out to be the MOST SUCCESSFUL or the RICHEST PERSON IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD but that's okay, because there's so many other things to be grateful for. We have a roof above our heads, food to eat, people that love you and education. Always be thankful for those things in your life and don't take it for granted, some people don't have that chance. 

Oh, if you want to just have a little fun about knowing what career suits you, go to this website:
http://www.selectsmart.com/topjobs.html (It doesn't guarantee anything ok, just for fun!)

Best of luck to all of you in your future undertakings:)

Love Rachel*

Kindness makes the world go round

How have I been doing without social media you may ask? Well, I'm actually holding up pretty well without it. I spend more time reading and doing more productive things to be honest. I do feel a bit left out because I have no idea where are people going and what they are doing but I guess it is okay:b So all in all, I'm fine, honestly, without Twitter and Instagram:) Yay.

Alright back to today's topic. As most of you may notice, we live in a very selfish world. Most people assume that the world revolves around them. They're very self-centred, want things for their own and whatever they do HAS to benefit them and if it doesn't? They'll just sod it. This results in humans not being helpful. Because if we don't gain anything from what we're doing then for what? That's none of my business right?

See, most people have that mindset. You see someone in need, you think "Ain't none of my business" and walk off. It's because we don't want to "involve" ourselves in anything. All we think about is me me me and not others. 

Ellen Degeneres has this segment on her show called "Cash for Kindness". What she does is that, she'll send one of her staff members to act as e.g. a pregnant lady who dropped all her balls/a caterer who dropped his potatoes on the road and whoever helps them gets money from Ellen. Yeah its pretty funny but what really shocked me was that most of the people passing by did not give a damn about those people at all. There was one where Ellen's staff called "Andy" has to pretend to be a caterer who dropped his potatoes on the road and this cop came along. You may think "Oh yay, a hero!" Guess what he did, he kicked the potatoes to the side of the road -.- WTH and people drove around it. What a D right? Watch the videos if you can. You'll realise how people truly are.

In my daily life, I always try to help anyone around me as much as I can. Not because I may appear on Ellen or get money or what but I just want to lighten the burden of others. Think about the times where you needed help the most and no one was there for you. I was in a situation like that before and I hope that other people don't have to face the same thing because it sucks. It doesn't have to be like a huge ass thing ya know. You see someone with his/her hands full and is having trouble opening the door? Open the door for them. You see a lady struggling with her baby stroller and her baby, go over there and help. It's little actions like that, that makes the world go round. When I help people, I'm happy. When people help me, I feel inspired to help others and I hope all of you will feel the same way too. And when you help people, don't expect for anything. Do it out of sincerity. Do it to improve mankind because ya know we're all pretty fucked up. You help someone, that someone may feel inspired to help someone, and that someone you help may even help someone else. It's a possible cycle.

I just feel that kindness and being helpful is a good start to making this world a better place. I know y'all think this shit is gay but on a serious note, think about it. We're terrible people. How many asshole drivers are there on the road? How many people push you when you walk in a crowded place? As this bible verse goes, (It doesn't matter what religion you are because you know this line is so damn true)

 "Do unto others as you would have done them unto you"

I just really hope that people would be more considerate and be more kind to others. This way there'll be less assholes in the world then everyone will be happy right? So again, you see someone in distress, don't just be a douche and walk away. Help them. If you don't, don't you dare call others an ass when no one helps you when you're in need. Karma will bite you in the ass. 

PS: For those who usually reads my blog from twitter. Don't worry, my sisters will help me post it up when I update. Thank you sissies <3

Love Rachel*

Goodbye virtual world (sort of)

I am officially back! Finally finished my IGCSE today and now I'm just praying for good results:D

As you can see from my title, I'll be saying goodbye to the virtual world (sort of) and that means I will be deleting my Twitter and Instagram account. By tomorrow, you won't have any follower called @rachellutzeee or following anyone by that name. Here is why I'm doing so.
Before you read on, let me warn you that this will be a pretty long post but I hope that you will continue reading and benefit from this post. Okay, I won't be going straight to the reason but as you read along, I'm sure you'll get the idea why.

For a long time now, I've always been thinking about this. "Why the hell do I care about what people think about me?" For some reason, I've always worried about what people think about me. Whenever someone insults me, I take it really personally and all I do is think about that insult and see what I can do to change it. I have tried changing but it only lasts for so long because we always revert back to our old ways. The thing is, why do we "change" for this people? Why do we care about what they think about us? Does it benefit you in any way?

I have then come to the conclusion that most of us, wants to be liked and we are afraid to be alone. We want to be an influence, we want to be cool, we want to fit in! because if we don't, we'll have no friends, we won't be accepted. If you have instagram, do not tell me you have never cared about the number of likes you get for a damn nice picture you took 5000 hours to edit. Do not tell me, you have never hoped for someone to comment, "Woah, nice body!""So pretty/handsome/muscular/hot" "Wow" etc. Do not tell me you have never wanted to buy the outfit you saw another girl wear when she posted it on Insta. If you have twitter, do not tell me you never hope for favourites when you tweet something super deep or whatever. Do not tell me you have never cared about the number of followers you have, and tried to make yourself look like you have tons of followers by unfollowing more people. Do not tell me you have never tried to tweet something cool/deep/relatable on purpose just so you can get favourite and retweets because someone else is doing it?

Do not tell me those things have never occurred to you at least once because I'm damn sure it has. Seriously, think through it. If you are 205% sure that it has never occurred to you then you deserve a good pat on the back, which shows that you are not affected by the on going peer pressure on social media. But if it has happened to you before, well, join the club because I have done the same thing. Have you ever wondered why you did all those for? Yeah, so you can get more likes?
  But for what? So what if you have 5000likes and 89245798 followers? Does it make you cool or socially acceptable? Okay, maybe yes in the virtual world but in real life? Nobody's going to remember you as "She's the girl with 4927340987274 followers on instagram" or "He's the guy who got 384949348982 likes on his picture!" In the end, no one is going to give a damn about your virtual life.

Yes, I do understand that most of you all want to be liked. I want to be liked to, who doesn't? We think those likes are so important because of peer pressure. Another example, the ice bucket challenge. How many of you actually did it MAINLY for the cause and not because all your friends are doing it? And you feel that you should do it too? Just 'cause your best friend has thousands of followers, you feel the need to have just as many followers because you do not want to be less popular than she is. Just 'cause your bros go to the gym, that does not mean you have to just because you do not want to be "less buff" than he is. Then you all feel the need to post it up on Insta/Twitter wherever because you feel the need to be socially active. Right there, you are already affected by peer pressure.We live in our virtual world too often until we forget about the real world. When you use your phone and no one's replying you, where do you go? Twitter then Instagram then SnapChat then Tumblr but when you're done? You repeat the whole cycle again, you refresh your twitter timeline repeatedly, hoping a tweet pops out. Do you realise how dependent we are on them? We feel the need to maintain a good reputation on our social networking accounts so much,we forget about our own reputation in real life. We are pressured to do all these things, most of the time unconsciously and social media is the biggest contributor to peer pressure (I did my research). Yes, apps like Twitter and Insta are very innocent apps at the beginning, but now it has been turned into like a guidebook on how you should be to be cool and fit in.

Back to the focus on why I'm deleting my Twitter and Instagram. Before I continue, I'm not hating on the apps, in fact, I love the apps and I have honestly learnt so much from people I do not know (Now that's peer pressure in a POSITIVE CONNOTATION). Unfortunately, for me, the cons outweigh the pro. Whenever I see a pretty girl on insta, I feel the need to look like her and have whatever she has because people think it's cool. My self esteem goes down the drain and I hate on myself for a while because I cannot be like her. I know you may be thinking, "don't let these people affect you then." And that is exactly what I am doing. Deleting these two apps will take me one step closer to build my own confidence and care less about what people think of me. This is my choice guys. I'm NOT telling you that you should do the same thing too. If you have other alternatives then that's great!

But let me ask you something, if I told you to delete your social networking accounts right now, would you do it right away? Or would you like take a while to think about it? I'm sur, you'll be thinking, "Then what am I gonna do when I'm bored? Where am I gonna see all those funny pictures? How will I know what's happening on twitter?" blah blah blah. Well, I thought of things like that too and it made me think about how much I depend on these apps to kill time as well. The apps have been such a huge part of my life,  I feel that it's so difficult for me to delete them. That is when I realise that the apps have to go. I rely on them too much and it has made me think/done things that are against my principles. It honestly made me stoop so low just to meet people's standards. I thought it would be bad if I had to be alone emotionally, but I rather be alone then be surrounded by people who make me feel even more alone -Robin Williams- Do not feel the need to conform to others. Why go through all the trouble to please others when you aren't happy yourself?

Again guys, this is MY choice, it need not be the same situation for you. But I do hope you just sit back and think awhile all the things I've said above. Do you care, even a little bit about your reputation online? The number of likes? Their comments? The followers? Whatever someone else has, you feel like you should have it to cause it makes you damn hipster/cool? And if I told you to delete those apps, would you do it right away without a second thought?

I know you're thinking, "Why don't you delete everything else Rachel?" Good question, well, here are my reasons. I'm keeping Facebook to keep in touch with people so I'm going to be deleting people I do not know. I'm still contemplating whether I should keep my snapchat because I get to see/make really retarded faces. And I'm keeping this blog because I hope through my blog, I'll be able to help people in the right ways and that is because I want to :) No pressure, haha.

So whenever I update my blog, I'll only be posting it on Facebook, that is it. If you're really interested in my blog, come visit it once in awhile and check if not, email me rachelgurl97@gmail.com (don't laugh at my email). I know this is a very controversial topic guys and it can be debatable, definitely! These are just my OPINIONS, they are not facts! If you have any questions/ comments/ statement,please just type in the cbox or talk to me about it. I want to learn more from different people! Ooh, and lemme know what you would like me to blog the next time! I'll be on holiday for the next week so I won't be posting anything during the next 7 days!Anyway, thank you for reading until the end (I'm probably off topic I know, forgive me) and it means a lot to me!:) Please do think about it though.

Love Rachel*

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Remember that kindness makes the world go round.

Holy crap... Its been so damn long. I'm still very surprised that people are still reading my blog...
Anyhow! Firstly, I would like to sincerely apologise to those who actually still visit my blog and I really appreciate it! Sorry I have not updated anything, I've been very busy this year because it's my senior year and I'm currently preparing for my IGCSE:( I'm contemplating whether or not I should delete my blog because honestly, I don't know whether I'm being a very useful blogger. haha. I would really appreciate if you could tell me at the chat box/comment whether I should delete my blog or not. I would probably start blogging again after IGCSE if I have people who want me to continue on with my blog if not, bye bye e-mptypages.blogspot.com D: Will really appreciate your thoughts/comments, it's what keeps me going:)

Also, thanks to my babe, Qyee for reminding me about my blog hehe :b

*illectica

It is. It's not.

It's not about the number of roses he sends
It's not about the surprises he plans or
the size of the teddy bear he buys or
how grand the restaurant must be to celebrate your
2nd anniversary.

We've been deceived by a made up theory of
how love is supposed to be.
That love is suppose to be about candle-lit dinners,
taking a lovely evening stroll, kisses and hugs and
darling i love you.

Oh bless these unexperienced lovers
who only know the surface of love and not what lies beneath it all.

You know what love is?

Love can make you feel like you're the loneliest person
in the world.
It makes you cry endlessly.
It makes you wish that love would never exist.
Love can slap you right across the face and mock you,
screaming its lungs out to you that you've been fucking played.
Love can drive a knife deep through your heart.
Love is a poison,
that can slowly suffocate you
and kill you from the inside out.
Love will make you punch walls until your knuckles
bleed.
It can be the heaviest burden you will ever carry and its breaks every part of you.
Love
can
kill you.



But that's not all.



Love can make you move mountains,
Love can be a cure,
Love makes you feel as though you have the ability to fly
all the way up where the stars smile back you.
Love can make your heart beat like mad
You can feel the blood rushing into your cheeks
and you giggle to yourself like a little child when you think of
all those moments when love,
were the reasons.
Love just spreads warmth throughout your body,
and you glow so brightly.
Love, goddamnit, it's just so indescribable sometimes
it can drive you fucking nuts!

Love can be a curse or a gift.
It's up to one
to decide which one it will be.
It requires sacrifice and time and effort.
It may sound very much like a burden but in the end,
all of it will be worth it
becauses, all in all,
nothing worth having comes easy.


It's not really a poem, I just felt like typing this way. Please tell me if you're sick of me blogging this way. Suggestions are very much appreciated:)

Love Rachel*

Purpose

Every night she hopes.
Every night she prays that
everything will be different when she wakes up.
Eyes open with no more fear,
with no more pain or hate
Or dark shadows to consume her and
make her curl up in the corner, wishing
she was dead.
Wishing,
that she was never born into this horrible,
horrible world that has made her into an insignificant speck
of dust
Thrown and beaten by a heartless body.
Treated like she wasn't a living soul and she cries out,
"Dear Lord, please please take my life away"

Covered with hidden bruises and
scars that marked her worst days
Her worst nights
Her worst moments
Her worst hours.
Not a day she goes to bed without her salty tears,
burning her cheeks.
Teeth gritting, knuckles white as she stifles her whimpers.
Clinging on to every possible reason left for her to still live
and hope that something will change.
That there was something out there
for her.

Her heart may be filled with grief
with depression
with all susceptible pain.
But she has love.
She has yet so much love to give away
and honestly asks for nothing,
Nothing at all in return.
She gives love to this man.
This dark, destructive man who inflicts pain on her
damaging her body,
her face,
her soul.
He was loathsome abhorrent and devoured
by his past that has polluted his mind and heart.
No more room to accept love, and kindness.

Maybe she still lived for him.
Maybe,
just maybe.
That this was her purpose.
To bleed dry his hatred and grudges and all things
that has denatured his beautiful soul that has made him
into this.
This man.
All she can is await the day that he'll be ready.
Ready to accept all that she's willing to give from
her almost shattered heart.
Faith and hope held her together.
Faith and hope kept her sane enough to love.
To love,
a broken man like him.



Nothing super great or anything but what do you all think? Lame right :b


Love Rachel*

Losing Fats

Amen.

It's a start of new month, pretty quick huh? I should be studying but it won't hurt just taking some time off to do some blogging right? hehe. Y'all should be studying instead of reading this stupid post anyway. Pssh

Alright, I'm gonna be talking about weight/ fats or whatever you call it. I know there are millions of people out there who are weight conscious. I admit I'm one of them and it can really make life damn tough for you.You're just restricted to so many things. Can't eat this, can't eat that blah blah blah. It really makes me regret sometimes, like why did I even end of being weight conscious.

I'm pretty sure everyone has different reasons to lose weight. For me, I do it to feel better about myself, to be able to inspire people, to look good, for my health etc. I really hope those who are, are doing it for the right reasons. If you're doing it to be more confident about yourself, or for the sake of your health then of course that's great. But if you're doing it because of peer pressure or because you hate your body then you might want to rethink it. First of all, if you do it for the wrong reasons, it won't take you far. Sooner or later, you'll realise that, doing it just cause of peer pressure is merely just a waste of time. It's the wrong form of motivation, ya get what I'm saying? Don't go to the gym just because you wanna fit in, because motivation like what won't take you far and you'll just end up back at square 1 again. So first of all, if you wanna finally start the "fit life", do it for the right reasons. Do it for reasons that will motivate you the whole way and not just a period of time. Also, do it because you expect it from yourself not what others expect from you. Sometimes, I'm like, "oh, people expect me to be fit and muscular and what what what." So I try my best to live up to them but then I stop and think again, I should be doing it for myself and not others. If you're gonna do it because other people expect you too then really, you're just wasting your time.

Secondly, I hope if you're trying to lose fats(let's use fats, not weight), you're doing it the right way. Trust me, I've tried shitloads of ways to lose fats and starving yourself really isn't one of them, skipping your meals isn't the right way either. When you starve, you're just trying to suppress you hunger, sooner or later, you're gonna be so damn hungry and during your next meal, you're gonna eat so damn much (most likely equivalent to what you would usually eat). It's unhealthy first of all because your body isn't getting what it needs. Second, you're gonna binge and make yourself so damn bloated plus you're increasing your appetite because you just eat like one shot. Skipping your meals will just end up to starving yourself then the cycle repeats.

Another thing also, is that I've tried like not taking fried food & sweet drinks at all in a month but when that month was over, holy shit, I ate so so much fried food, drank so much sweet drinks so I just suffered for a month for nothing and my cravings just got stronger. Such a genius right? So I came up with this way and it's been working so far. I only allow myself to have one sweet drink a week. It helped me reduce my cravings for sure. Or if you're like eating healthy, maybe have a cheat meal a week so that you don't constantly crave for it. These are not like scientifically proven ways or whatever, it's just what I think that will work for people who are trying to lose fats in general. So, if you wanna lose fats, do it the right way. Cut down on sugar and fatty food. Increase the veges, drink more water, do more exercise. It's simple. Why torture yourself by starving when you can just take 30mins of your life to do some exercise. Don't be lazy. Results will only come if you work for it.

Also, there's something I like to clarify. Ladies & gentlemen, the number on your super ordinary, not complex weighing scale does NOT tell you "HOW FAT YOU ARE". It tells you your mass not how much fats you have. Take that idea It's better to be heavy because of muscles and not fats.
and throw it away. Think about it, a super muscular guy can weigh like 90kg. Is he fat? No right? It's because of his muscles! If you didn't know, muscles are twice the weight of fat. If you're gonna measure your weight, I suggest you use those weighing scales that shows you your fat percentage (if you're really super into to knowing your fats) if not, you can just take picture progress. It's not accurate but you can see differences(not super extreme ones, give yourself time)

Before I stop my super long ass post, I would like to tell all of you that I'm not saying "Everyone must be slim and do tons of exercise and blah blah blah" No I'm not, I encourage everyone to exercise & STAY FIT. Not get skinny or whatever. Everyone has different preferences or views so it's really up to an individual how he/she sees it. You can disagree with whatever I say, it's fine:) The aim of my post is just to stop people from thinking that heavy= fat. It's not. All in all, just be healthy.You wanna live long don't you?

Love Rachel*

They hold you back.

White words with black backgrounds don't lie

Raise the roof 'cause Rachel's in da house! Woot woot! ok, I stop.

Hello readers! I'm so sorry I haven't posted anything in a long long time, I've really been busy. I won't be posting as often anymore because it's senior year and I have tons of shit to do. But I'll do my best to post shit up when I get super inspired or something :b I hope everyone's doing well and if you're reading this, thank you so so much :) It's nice to know my effort and thirty minutes did not go to waste:b

Alright. I will be talking about insecurities today! Yay! If you didn't notice, yes, my previous post was somewhat about insecurities. The reason why I repeat on it, it's because, you have to admit, insecurities can destroy a person. It really can, so I'm posting this hoping to remind you all and maybe start changing the way you think.

Yes, everyone has insecurities, even people with huge ass egos. We all have a part of us we don't like, or we get teased about it and stuff. Then maybe we start complaining to our loved ones, or friends or whoever you tell your shit to. In my case, I'll be like, "I hate my voice ughhhhh." "My voice sucks, I wanna change it." Yeah my voice is my probably my biggest insecurity. I do complain about it and I'm still not over it. It's freaking hard to get over your insecurity, I understand but you cannot let it consume you. Let's say if I were to complain to my loved one about my voice everyday. It get's annoying doesn't it? My partner tries to console me, I feel better but then I revert back to complaining about it again. At the end of the day, it is NOT your insecurity that will push your partner away but you COMPLAINING about it will be the one pushing them away. (because your partner can't take your whining shit anymore, that's why) Think about it, if your partner didn't like your insecurity, he/she wouldn't even be with you in the first place, amen? Amen. He/She would probably love your insecurity the most. So there, that's one reason for you to stop complaining about it.

Fine, let's say you don't have a loved one. It's cool. How about maybe that one insecurity defines you. If I could change my voice, honestly, I wouldn't. I guess it defines me. Like, "Oh, that's Rachel with her really deep voice." Yep, that's me. HAHAHA. Maybe that's not how you define yourself but maybe other people do and it doesn't always have to be a bad thing right? Maybe other people will like your insecurity, maybe that's their favourite part of you. You never know. One day, there will be someone you will love you for you, yes you, your imperfections, flaws, insecurities etc etc. You come in a package, and if they refuse to accept any part of you then that's their loss.

We all want something we don't have. That's life. We can't have everything can we? Well, even if we do have everything we want, do you think we'll be permanently happy? No right? See. There's always a part of you, you can be happy about. Don't say you don't have because that is a big ass lie. I'm learning how to slowly get over it myself and complain less about it. Accept compliments. It's okay to be insecure, it's what makes us human. I guess many people think it's WRONG to have insecurities, well, it's not. It makes you, YOU. Don't ever forget :) Now give your self-esteem a +1

Thank you for reading you kind soul. Bless you. *Sprinkles holy water*

Dedicating this post to the guy who's always patient with me when I whine about my insecurities. Thank you for appreciating me, for me :) 




Love Rachel*

Tryhard, maybe?

Hello everyone! Finally an update. I know I haven't been updating because there's a lot of things going on but I hope you all are still interested in reading? (please say yes) As you all can see, I made some changes on my blog! What do you all think? Lemme know :)

Welll recently, my self-esteem is pretty darn low. I've been coming across pictures of really stunning and slim girls and you know the usual reaction is, "Damn, I wanna be like her." I admit right now that there is this one girl I wanna be like. She's beautiful, creative, slim, smart, talented, her fashion sense, she's cool and the list goes on and on. I really want to be like her and I tried so hard. This is something embarrassing for me to admit but yeah, there you go.

I honestly didn't know what I was thinking because all along I try to be myself as much as I can around everyone but when I met this girl, I don't know, I just wanna be like her. I guess there's a line between trying to be exactly like someone and using them as an  inspiration/motivation. These are two different things and I went beyond that. Sooner or later, I realised how wrong it was. Maybe not wrong but, I try too hard to be like someone else that I most likely will never be. No matter how hard we try to be someone else, in the end, we still end up being ourselves. We cannot change who we are and you can't pretend to be someone else forever. You should be surrounded by people who will love and appreciate you for you and not because you were trying to be like another guy/girl. It's in you and if you're like that, you are like that. Everyone is different in every way and we cannot escape that. We cannot change but we can improve on who we are. There will always be room for improvement :)

So if you see someone you wanna be like, don't try to be exactly like them. Make them your inspiration to become a better person and not demotivate you. I figure that's one of the things people mistake for. Don't let anyone or anything demotivate you or change who you are. That's just not healthy. Each of us has something that everyone wants but we can't have everything, can we? We are all blessed with something good. (Well, unless you are a homeless person but then how did you end up at my blog anyway?ha ha ha. lame) But if you feel like you aren't blessed with something then that is where you are wrong. You just don't know how to see the more positive and brighter side of things. 

So... ladies and gentleman, I've learnt my lesson. Have you learnt yours? Don't try so hard to be like someone else because we'll end up reverting back to our original self. Be yourself and if other people can't accept you for you then screw them. Why would you wanna be surrounded by people who wouldn't love you for you anyway. Be yourself but a good one, not a bad one :b I hope you all understand what I'm saying.

And check out my tumblr if y'all like: http://e-mptypages.tumblr.com/

I'll keep waiting.

Love Rachel*

Need motivation?

I love this quote. Amen, Tom Hanks.

Remind yourself right now.

Wow, it's been a almost a month since I've updated. The school year has just begun and the start of the year is always busy. Sports season, class deco, preparation for cheer, assignments and the list goes on and on. It's been a super busy start so forgive me dear readers :(

Alright, let's get on with it. As you all know, Sports Season is here so I thought why not give a motivational post right? :D Yeah, it's pretty lame but I hope you all read on :b Hopefully by the end of this post, you'll feel pumped and ready to exercise! We all know it's really hard to stay motivated, like to attend trainings, to stay fit and all that kind of stuff. I totally understand because I have trainings all year round and extra during sports season because of events and upcoming competitions then at the end of the year, I train to prep for the next year. Not trying to brag or anything, just trying to link it to what I'm about to tell you. Since I train very often, honestly, it's really hard to keep myself motivated. I get bored of trainings sometimes because it's too much until the point I can't take it anymore. I get demotivated really quickly and decide to give up from time to time. Yes, it's really hard to maintain motivated. You get side track and then you're just like screw everything. You go like, "Why am I even doing this? I'm sick of it. I should quit this." It happens to most of us right? It sure happened to me before. I've thought of quitting cheer  and gym as well for like uncountable times because I have to be so committed and sometimes, it really sucks.

As I grew older, I started thinking through because I really cannot bring myself to quit something that has been such a huge part of my life. I cannot just think of quitting just because I'm gonna be demotivated for awhile. So this is what I do. I take a break, take some time off training. Watch my past cheer videos (they really get me pumped up), see my past progression pictures, tell myself that I have yet a lot of things I wanna achieve and I'm not ready to quit that way. There are a lot of different ways to motivate yourself, it depends on how you motivate yourself. For some people, it would be like. "Oh you suck at this blah blah blah." Some people would take this negative criticism and turn it into motivation. In the end, they prove the other person wrong.  Another one would be like challenges. I challenge myself to do what I think I cannot do. I don't necessarily have to achieve that specific thing but at least I improve in some way. 

So sometimes if you feel too demotivated, stop for awhile and just take a break before it really gets to you. Key to being motivated is to always be positive, think of how far you have come and not how long more you have to go, don't take it so hard on yourself and keep pushing on. You've come so far, why give up now right? Just don't ever give up. It's okay to get side track once in awhile but you gotta make sure you find back your motivation and get back on the road. Be positive, look at the brighter side of things. It really helps (:

As for those inactive people, like you don't like sports. Honestly, I think you should give it a try. Just try, you never know whether you might find joy in sports. I have a lot of friends who are now so in love with sports (yes they are still as geeky as ever in the inside.) A lot of people claim that geeky people aren't athletic and athletic people aren't smart which I strongly disagree. A lot of the athletes I know are smart as well, and I know some smart asses who commit a lot to exercising. So stop using "I'm not fit" as an excuse to not participate! Everyone has to start from scratch then you build your way from there! (:

Again, have a positive mindset and never ever give up! Find your source of motivation and push yourself (: Don't quit because you're done trying, only failures do that.

And this is my 100th post! Happy 100th post :D

Love Rachel*