Tryhard, maybe?

Hello everyone! Finally an update. I know I haven't been updating because there's a lot of things going on but I hope you all are still interested in reading? (please say yes) As you all can see, I made some changes on my blog! What do you all think? Lemme know :)

Welll recently, my self-esteem is pretty darn low. I've been coming across pictures of really stunning and slim girls and you know the usual reaction is, "Damn, I wanna be like her." I admit right now that there is this one girl I wanna be like. She's beautiful, creative, slim, smart, talented, her fashion sense, she's cool and the list goes on and on. I really want to be like her and I tried so hard. This is something embarrassing for me to admit but yeah, there you go.

I honestly didn't know what I was thinking because all along I try to be myself as much as I can around everyone but when I met this girl, I don't know, I just wanna be like her. I guess there's a line between trying to be exactly like someone and using them as an  inspiration/motivation. These are two different things and I went beyond that. Sooner or later, I realised how wrong it was. Maybe not wrong but, I try too hard to be like someone else that I most likely will never be. No matter how hard we try to be someone else, in the end, we still end up being ourselves. We cannot change who we are and you can't pretend to be someone else forever. You should be surrounded by people who will love and appreciate you for you and not because you were trying to be like another guy/girl. It's in you and if you're like that, you are like that. Everyone is different in every way and we cannot escape that. We cannot change but we can improve on who we are. There will always be room for improvement :)

So if you see someone you wanna be like, don't try to be exactly like them. Make them your inspiration to become a better person and not demotivate you. I figure that's one of the things people mistake for. Don't let anyone or anything demotivate you or change who you are. That's just not healthy. Each of us has something that everyone wants but we can't have everything, can we? We are all blessed with something good. (Well, unless you are a homeless person but then how did you end up at my blog anyway?ha ha ha. lame) But if you feel like you aren't blessed with something then that is where you are wrong. You just don't know how to see the more positive and brighter side of things. 

So... ladies and gentleman, I've learnt my lesson. Have you learnt yours? Don't try so hard to be like someone else because we'll end up reverting back to our original self. Be yourself and if other people can't accept you for you then screw them. Why would you wanna be surrounded by people who wouldn't love you for you anyway. Be yourself but a good one, not a bad one :b I hope you all understand what I'm saying.

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I'll keep waiting.

Love Rachel*