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What do you hear?

Rumours are carried by haters, spreaded by fools and accepted by idiots.
Are you any of the above?

Hello, feeling kinda shitty now. I hope blogging will make me feel better, haha. I hope everyone's being productive with their holiday so far. No? Get some shit to do then :b

You know what I hate? Like I seriously just bloody dislike? Bitter gourds, they are disgusting. And so are rumours... I hate rumours too, they can really piss me off. I know you may think, "If the rumours aren't true, why are you mad? You should know the truth and all that." Yes fair point, but I hate it cause it's so stupid. If you want to spread a rumour about me, why don't you come to me, and clarify the shit you want to spread before opening your big mouth? Before I continue on, I'm not talking about this because someone's spreading rumour about me or anything, I just thought of it. 

But some people don't really care. There would be this group of people who spread rumours to get attention and maybe friends. Especially the types that like to gossip would approach these people because man, they're so damn busybody and want to know everything and anything so they can gossip even more! Hooray. So they wouldn't really care whether these rumours are even true or not, they just spread it. Heck, they might even make up a rumour themselves. It's not their loss anyway. Yeah, but does it feel nice to be a dickhead and spread false news about other people? You like that? Why don't you chop off your own dick and tape it to your head. (okay, I know I sound really angry so far but I'm not, seriously, I'm just feeling shitty so I'm trying to let it all out) And if you're a girl... Go find one and paste it on your head.

Then there will be another group of people who just "accidentally" tell other people because they just heard it. First of all, if you're not even sure whether the rumour is true. Shut it, seriously. Or why don't you clarify the real shit first? (: Second, if you know its true, still, why spread it? Put yourself in their shoes and would you like people to know something that's not meant to be known? And to the person who the rumour is about, seriously, who do you share your secrets with? Your boyfriend? Girlfriend? Best friend? Well if it's spreading like wildfire than you need to make sure whether you're sharing it with the right people. Maybe you should say "Look I'm about to tell you something. Don't. tell. anyone." Emphasise on the ITS A SECRET thing. Some people really need to told like 100 of times that its a secret but in the end, some asses still scream it out to the whole world.

I think I'm off topic... I'm too lazy to read back. Okay in a nutshell:

1. Clarify with the main person about the rumour before you open your mouth.

2. If you mean harm, seriously, don't be a dick. You wouldn't want the same happening to you. In the end, what good will it do to you?

3. To the ones who accidentally talk about it, THINK TWICE (you should always be thinking twice anyway so don't come up with excuses)

4.Make sure you can seriously trust the people you tell your shit too. If you only told one person and other people know about it. You gotta sort that  out.

5. Shut your mouth. (I highly recommend this)

Okay, I feel better now :) I sound like a dickhead when I'm angry. Lemme go paste one on my head.

Wait.

Love Rachel*

Security.

Yay blog time. So I participated in talentine today but didn't get any placing. Still pretty bummed about that but oh well /: Life goes on.

Let's just get on with it. Alright, in case if you haven't figured it out yet, my topic would be about insecurities. My mind is damn blank right now so I'll just type out whatever shit that comes into my mind.

Okay, I'm pretty sure all of you have something you're insecure about. You're afraid people would insult you for it or even comment about it. For me, my biggest insecurity would be my voice. It's deep and husky, not much like a girl's right? Honestly, I did not find anything "wrong" (bad use of word but I don't know how else to put it) with my voice but then as I grew older, people started commenting about it. "Why your voice like guy one", "Are you having sore throat" and blah blah blah then I'll be like "yeah..." So obviously I was offended by it then I just started getting more insecure. Then whenever people insult me about it, I'll just burst to tears. (what a baby right?) Explains why I'm quite afraid to call or talk to people for the very first time. It's because I'm just so bloody scared they will say something about it. Well if I'm damn close to you then I don't care because you don't. (plus you should be accepting me for who I am, pssh :b)

Before I continue on, this isn't about MY insecurity. I'm just using it as an example of how you could overcome your insecurity which I'm gonna talk about it like now... I'm really lucky and grateful to have friends who's always telling me I have a nice voice and they like it. Some friends really lectured me about how I should really appreciate it and they just put so much effort into helping me fight it. It really means a lot so it helps build up my self confidence at times, so thanks a ton y'all <3 But then you cannot always depend on people to help fight your own insecurity. In the end, you yourself have to do it. It's not easy, of course it isn't, but at some point you have to really be more confident about it. I was born with this kind of voice, honestly, as much as I dislike it, I have to deal with it. I can't change my voice can I? Like once my friend told me before, it doesn't matter how your voice is like, if you have good words coming out from your mouth, no one would give a shit about your voice. And thinking about it, it's true. In order for you to get people to stop noticing your insecurity, maybe you should start being more confident about it, yes? If you're insecure about your body, do something about it, work out but if you're lazy then just shut up. If you're insecure about your looks, have a good heart because in the end, it's the inner beauty that matters (this is damn cheesy but it sure as hell is true).

Insecurities make us lose our confidence and sometimes it may even make you lose a great opportunity. Don't let that happen to you if not it'll just be a huge waste just because you let something like that get in the way. When you do face situations, think whether it's really worth to let it pull you down. If not you're just gonna be living at the bottom your whole life just because you're not confident about something.

I know so far my thoughts are all over the place, forgive me guys, I seriously cannot think straight.

Also, if you know someone's insecure about themselves, don't be a dick by using it against them. That's just downright mean. You're killing people's confidence and it doesn't make you any better. So if you have nothing nice to say then don't (: Keep it to yourself because you really don't wanna get beaten up. Well, I guess it's good that people are insecure about something. This ensures we don't have super duper egoistic people in this world (but damn, some people's egos are like bloody big. You can see this cloud of ego surrounding them, haha) 
So everyone, don't be too hard on yourselves sometimes. Try to look at things you like about yourself (please not too much) Be nice to yourself alright? It's healthy (: Again, sorry guys it's a pretty crappy post. My mind is just dead.

Love Rachel*

Don't remind me.

Hell yeah my favourite line :3
You have no bloody idea how long it took me to come up with something to blog about. Before I start, if you're reading this, I just want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. It really means a lot to me, seriously. Sometimes I don't know why people read also, interesting meh? :b Okay, who cares. Let's start.

Okay, I'm pretty sure everyone has had a bad experience before. It could be anything like a bad break up, someone has passed away, an accident, friendship problems or anything. I'm not comparing how bad the experiences are because to different people, it could mean differently. So no comparison alright?

Whenever someone has a bad experience, they would most likely say, "I rather die then be this sad" "I don't wanna live anymore" blah blah blah and all sorts of things. It's pretty understandable to act this way after going through shit. It's normal, I admit that I have acted this way before. But at some point of time, we need to learn to move on from this bad experiences. We can sulk about it but there's a time where you have to (favourite line coming up, just saying) tell yourself to get your shit together. Honestly, some people sulk about it for too damn long. In the end, it becomes more of an excuse to not be happy or to gain sympathy. No honey, it does not work that way, alright?

I always tell myself that these shit moments are God's gifts (quoted from one of my friends). You're probably thinking, "Wtf is she thinking? You call getting shit moments God' gift?" I know we have those moments like, "God if you love me so much why did you let me go through this crap... complain complain complain" Well there's a reason behind everything I believe. We go through this moments because they are lessons for us. We're suppose to learn from it, learn from our mistakes. Plus there's a quote that goes,

"Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn.My God do you learn."

Then you may think, "Why the hell am I going through the same damn thing again?" This is because my dear, you have had not learnt your lesson yet. It's like in the exams, you're gonna keep getting the same question wrong if you don't learn it right the first time (but really, would you keep getting the same question wrong? Don't be an idiot, fix that shit up) So in life, you could say it's the same thing. You're gonna keep getting the same lesson until you get that shit right. (If you noticed, I'm off topic)

Back to the topic.

Learn your lesson and move the hell on. No, I did not say it was easy. No one did but you have to in order to be happy. Happiness is a choice so don't say you don't have one. If you're upset about someone who has passed on, think about it. Will the person that passed on be happy seeing you mourning about his/her death your whole life? If I were dead, I sure as hell do not want my family crying about my death their whole life, I want them to just get it over with. Okay la, sulk abit but I don't want them to just be upset for the rest of their lives. As for a bad break up, seriously, you're gonna just cry about it for the rest of your life? Well, you should move on. Don't show your ex, "Oh she/he's super upset without me around. Wow I make such a huge impact on people's life" ego boost ego boost boom boom boom. (yeah, that was sorta unnecessary) There's a reason why you've broken up. Get upset about it (but not for too long) but promise yourself that you will move on.

Give yourself some time to recover from your bad experiences but make sure you learn from it. You don't want to go through the same shit again, would you?

Move on.

Love Rachel*