Tuesday, 12 November 2013

Security.


Yay blog time. So I participated in talentine today but didn't get any placing. Still pretty bummed about that but oh well /: Life goes on.

Let's just get on with it. Alright, in case if you haven't figured it out yet, my topic would be about insecurities. My mind is damn blank right now so I'll just type out whatever shit that comes into my mind.

Okay, I'm pretty sure all of you have something you're insecure about. You're afraid people would insult you for it or even comment about it. For me, my biggest insecurity would be my voice. It's deep and husky, not much like a girl's right? Honestly, I did not find anything "wrong" (bad use of word but I don't know how else to put it) with my voice but then as I grew older, people started commenting about it. "Why your voice like guy one", "Are you having sore throat" and blah blah blah then I'll be like "yeah..." So obviously I was offended by it then I just started getting more insecure. Then whenever people insult me about it, I'll just burst to tears. (what a baby right?) Explains why I'm quite afraid to call or talk to people for the very first time. It's because I'm just so bloody scared they will say something about it. Well if I'm damn close to you then I don't care because you don't. (plus you should be accepting me for who I am, pssh :b)

Before I continue on, this isn't about MY insecurity. I'm just using it as an example of how you could overcome your insecurity which I'm gonna talk about it like now... I'm really lucky and grateful to have friends who's always telling me I have a nice voice and they like it. Some friends really lectured me about how I should really appreciate it and they just put so much effort into helping me fight it. It really means a lot so it helps build up my self confidence at times, so thanks a ton y'all <3 But then you cannot always depend on people to help fight your own insecurity. In the end, you yourself have to do it. It's not easy, of course it isn't, but at some point you have to really be more confident about it. I was born with this kind of voice, honestly, as much as I dislike it, I have to deal with it. I can't change my voice can I? Like once my friend told me before, it doesn't matter how your voice is like, if you have good words coming out from your mouth, no one would give a shit about your voice. And thinking about it, it's true. In order for you to get people to stop noticing your insecurity, maybe you should start being more confident about it, yes? If you're insecure about your body, do something about it, work out but if you're lazy then just shut up. If you're insecure about your looks, have a good heart because in the end, it's the inner beauty that matters (this is damn cheesy but it sure as hell is true).

Insecurities make us lose our confidence and sometimes it may even make you lose a great opportunity. Don't let that happen to you if not it'll just be a huge waste just because you let something like that get in the way. When you do face situations, think whether it's really worth to let it pull you down. If not you're just gonna be living at the bottom your whole life just because you're not confident about something.

I know so far my thoughts are all over the place, forgive me guys, I seriously cannot think straight.

Also, if you know someone's insecure about themselves, don't be a dick by using it against them. That's just downright mean. You're killing people's confidence and it doesn't make you any better. So if you have nothing nice to say then don't (: Keep it to yourself because you really don't wanna get beaten up. Well, I guess it's good that people are insecure about something. This ensures we don't have super duper egoistic people in this world (but damn, some people's egos are like bloody big. You can see this cloud of ego surrounding them, haha) 
So everyone, don't be too hard on yourselves sometimes. Try to look at things you like about yourself (please not too much) Be nice to yourself alright? It's healthy (: Again, sorry guys it's a pretty crappy post. My mind is just dead.

Love Rachel*

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