While most people are asleep on the plane, I'm trying really hard to stay awake right now because I hate getting jet lag. It feels like utter shit. I'm just trying to get my body to adjust to my destination's time zone. I won't be sleeping for another 8 more hours and my eyes are tired af.
How do I feel right now? I'm devastated. I miss home already. The thought of being so far away from my friends and family kills me inside. In my head I keep thinking that I'm making a big mistake and I should have just stuck to staying at home. My heart hurts just thinking about all of this. But I'm so thankful for my friends, they push me forward and made me feel so much better about the whole thing.
How do I feel right now? I'm devastated. I miss home already. The thought of being so far away from my friends and family kills me inside. In my head I keep thinking that I'm making a big mistake and I should have just stuck to staying at home. My heart hurts just thinking about all of this. But I'm so thankful for my friends, they push me forward and made me feel so much better about the whole thing.
Ok, back to the aim of my post. My family and close friends planned a surprise farewell party for me two Sunday's ago and it was seriously the sweetest thing ever. I get teary-eyed very quickly so... I burst into tears as soon as I saw everyone in the room and processed what was actually happening. It was a very emotional night for me but I'm glad I could leave with that sweet memory. It was just really comforting to know that I will have so much love and support from home to make my departure much easier. Also, on that night, I had to make a speech and I was too emotional to form my words properly. My thoughts were all over the place and I was trying so hard to hold back my tears. Basically, I choked up many times during my speech and it went nothing like how I imagined in my head. So.. I just wanna redo my farewell speech for my friends & family. I'll keep it short & simple.
a glimpse of the amazing party decorations!
Here it goes:
"There's so much I want to say and so many people I wanna thank but it would be a never-ending list. I never realised how many people really loved and cared about me until that night. I realised how blessed I was to be surrounded by such amazing people. After IGs, I've spent 9 months (more or less) doing a bit of coaching, lazing around and trying to figure out what else I can do. I had so much free time and it made me lost because there was nothing I could focus on. When it was almost time for me to leave, I felt so ready to leave, so ready to start studying again and actually continue on with my life. But then, the surprise party happened and my heart has never felt so heavy after thinking about all the people that I'll be leaving behind. Thank you guys for teaching me to appreciate everyone around me more. I never knew how important your roles were in my life until that night. I'm ashamed to say that I may have taken some our friendships/time for granted but even so, you all stuck by me. What have I done in my past life to deserve all you incredible people? (You guys know who you are) Thank you so much for being in my life, thank you for everything that you've done for me. We may be miles apart but I'll never forget these incredible people. Time will pass very quickly and before you know it, we'll pick up where we left off. To these incredible people, please do take care and stay safe always! You all will be in my heart! A good friend of mine told me not to say goodbye but instead see you tomorrow. So, see you guys "tomorrow" I shall :)"
To the people I know, if you have snapchat feel free to add me! Since I have no twitter or instagram, I have no clue what's happening back home so I have to rely on snapchat to do so. Also, if you would like to see a few snippets of my American Life, add me too! Acc. name: rachellutzeee
That's all for now I guess, I will definitely update about my life here as soon as possible :)
Love Rachel*
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