Sadness flies on the wings of time.

This picture is somehow so heart-warming (:

How was everyone's day? Mine was not very productive I guess, as usual :b It feels really weird not training especially on a Wednesday. So Christmas is over and now I'm looking forward to New Year's! Parties during New year's are always da bomb well because it's a new beginning. Hopefully this year's New Year celebration will be awesome!

So I told my friend about the dream I had and he kinda made a psychological theory about it, it's kinda long but I'll just sum it up. First off, one of my family members (no idea who) reported me to be sent to a mental hospital and obviously I don't wanna be sent there so there were people chasing after me but finally I was tired and got caught and I was sent to some neighbourhood for the mental. This sounds stupid but bear with me, I mean, dreams can get pretty bizarre sometimes right? In this neighbourhood, everyone had their little house made out of ice that wouldn't melt and it was snowing since it was Christmas. It was really amazing the neighbourhood, it was pretty with the Christmas lights and all and for some reason people donated like a fortune to me and I had shit loads of money. I know that part doesn't make sense but I'll explain soon. So at the end of the bad dream, I was in paradise (:

Anyway, after I told this to my friend, he kinda came up with a theory and I have to say it was genius. This was that he said:

The family member who reported me- Someone close to me, could be a friend or whoever betrayed me. 

Me getting caught- I'm tired of being betrayed 

Me being sent to a new neighbourhood- I'm in a new place and I'm moving on

Me getting shit loads of money- I'm happy in the end

Not sure about what you guys think but I think it's a pretty smart theory. You always thought dreams were just dreams but now come to think of it maybe there are meanings behind your dreams. Not just some bizarre, out-of-the-world kind of dream but your life is behind all of it. It's like you're emotions are being told in a different story but you just don't notice it. It's a hidden meaning you know what I mean? And after my friend told me that, it really made sense because that is how I'm feeling right now. It doesn't need to be exactly the same but it relates somehow and it's really mindblowing. Maybe all along, all my weird dreams had a message or some sort of meaning to it. If not what are dreams for right? I've never thought of all of that until now. Think about your dreams, maybe that's why they say dreams do come true, I'm not sure. Try to find the meaning behind all your dreams (: 

Oh and here's a poem:

Sweet memories came flooding into my mind,

I still remember how you hugged me from behind.

When you pull me in & hug me tight,

Being in your arms just felt so right.

I rubbed my nose to your chest to take in your sweet smelling scent,

As you whisper to me words that you meant.

Your warmth surrounded me like a mist,

Then you top it all off with a soft, meaningful kiss.

I want to forever stay in your arms,

and to be safe from all harms. 

But I know all of this was just temporary,

I can't leave you so effortlessly.

You stare at me with confusion,

As I pull away to tell you my final decision.

I tried so hard to stay strong but you make me weak,

Your fingers wipe away the tears that wet my cheeks.

I pulled myself together to say those hurtful words,

After this, what more can be worse?

Two life-changing words escaped my mouth, "I'm leaving"

I turn and walk away, quietly sobbing.

A part of me feels so empty,

and I want to run back to you so badly.

A piece of my heart will be with you wherever,

But I know that our love will not last forever.

Love Rachel*