What's the point?

I was never mad, just hurt

Today was a good Friday for me! Enjoyed my day out with a friend (: Class list for 2013 came out today and I'm in 10 Theta. Everyone from every class were completely jumbled up and a part of me thinks that we're separated not because of subjects. I'm not sure how our school works but whatever. Anyway, quite a number of people are complaining or are unsatisfied with their completely new class because their friends aren't with them or they dislike some people in their class. I'm alright with my class I guess, not very satisfied but I'm not complaining either. I don't mind making new friends but the sad part is there are no new students but there are in other classes /: Damn. Anyway, I don't think people should swap classes because of friends or whatever, I mean, you're still in the same school and Sri Kl isn't very humongous either. You can always meet each other in the morning, break or lunch. Simple as that! It's not like you'll die if you don't see each other for 1 period or something, lol. We're put in different classes for a reason and not everything happens the way you want it to be. Just adapt to it and make new friends, it won't hurt (: You're gonna be in the class for 2 years only then you're off to college and right then, you won't even be in the same school with your mates so just appreciate the time you have together now. 

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Right now, I just feel distant from all my closest friends. It's damn saddening because whenever any of us have problems, we go to each other for help or when we just wanna chat or just to annoy the shit out of each other. Now, I don't have anyone to go to for help or no one comes to me for help or we don't even talk anymore /: All that kind of friendship I used to have with all my close friends, they are all fading and soon I'm gonna go solo. Again, friends come and go, you can't force any of them to stay, if they are meant to leave your life, they leave. People come and go, it's sad but true. If you want someone to stay, you can always fight for it, fight as hard as you can and if fate decides that you deserve that person, fate can change. It can always change through actions but if you try and that person still doesn't stay, he/she is meant to leave. Don't ever force something especially feelings. I try to approach my friends but I feel like I'm disturbing them or they don't respond to me. It's sad when you feel like none of your friends give a shit about you and when you got something going on, there's no one you can turn to anymore for help but be alone and just cry your eyes out. Right now, I don't have anyone to turn to, not even my best friends and I wish I can have them back but if they leave, they leave. If they do leave, I hope they are happy no matter what. Right now, I have no idea what I'm gonna do about my worries but I will think of a solution to it (:

If you do have a friendship problem right now, try your best to mend it if you want to save it but it takes 2 to fix it, just like in any other relationships. There's always a solution to everything, you just need to find the will and patience to do it. I guess that's most of our problems, we don't have patience because we feel like we have so many other things to worry about we forget that patience sometimes can actually be a cure to things. Try being patient and fix the problem because you want to, your heart needs to be there when you do it (:

Love Rachel*